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	A Window Into my Memory The toughts that travel through Kupo's mind. The things that he wonders, dreams, and fears...

	Shall I end it?
	Shall I end it?


******... Why? I hurt people. I do nothing but hurt people. Why am I existant it this is the only thing I can do? I hate myself, I'm a horrid despicable creature. I'm going to beat myself up, and continue to do it until things are right, I am dead and the people I hurt are happy again. Why bother huh? What the **** should I live for if I only hurt? Maybe I should just pick up a good rusty sharp knife and just end it all. Before someone else gets hurt? I'm sure that'd be nice. Kupo-Sama** · Sun Jul 03, 2005 @ 03:59am · 6 Comments


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	User Comments: [6]


	try to end your life and I will hurt you badly before you can even do it. stare Offline Arashi_Kira · Community Member · Sun Jul 03, 2005 @ 05:15pm


	Don't you ****** DARE say or write anything like that again, do you hear me?! I've lost too many people to suicide or to attempts to even read something like this. Gavin, I swear to you, if you do anything like that, I WILL hunt your a down and I WILL show you a level of Hell that you could think never exisited. Just this year a girl I liked (now as a friend) tried to commit suicide, I couldn't even think, much less work when I was told at school by her foster sister. Hell, I overheard one of my teachers saying they had never seen someone react in such a worried manner before. Don't you dare even think about that, I'm not ****** with your head about this. I care too much, even though we've only been talking to each other for nine months and never met face to face, about you to let you say this. I don't want to lose another friend, it's hard enough making them, learning to trust and confide in them, taking that risk, and then just watching/learning that you've lost them. I will not let anyone do something that can't be undone, not if I can do anything about it. I'm always here Gav, when you need to write out your feelings (and when we call you after Shihai's crisis is over), I'm here: aino_senshi_luna@yahoo.com Email me, I check it everyday. Offline Hanyou_Kagome** · Community Member · Sun Jul 03, 2005 @ 09:50pm


	crying Hugs I'm sorry, I didn't mean to scare everyone. I was just really down cause I felt like such an insensitive, selfish b***d who only deserved the worst punishment imaginable. And even though I still do feel that, you guys wouldn't have to worry. I don't have the balls to commit suicide, but to even think of it in this state really frightens me. ... I'm scared. Offline Kupo-Sama** · Community Member · Mon Jul 04, 2005 @ 04:47am


	Every time I feel like a selfish, insensitive b*h, I usually take it out on my video games or write it out in poetry/songs. Hell, even drawing it works. Then again, sometimes I take it out in ways that both relieve the build up and later on make me feel like crap as well. Offline Hanyou_Kagome** · Community Member · Mon Jul 04, 2005 @ 10:49pm


	stare He is allowed to use his journal any way he wishes, if he wants to talk about how miserable he is he can, he wont kill himself because he wont leave me, so just take a damn chill pill Offline II S n o w y II · Community Member · Fri Jul 08, 2005 @ 05:53am


	Why do you say that? I have never seen you hurt anyone. From what i know about you....You are a very good and nice person. I may not know you like others do but to many people i cared about died like that. So don't you dare. I care about all my friends whether i have known them for years or days. Offline Rayne Chaoswind · Community Member · Fri Jul 08, 2005 @ 06:51am

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