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This was my first time in love with anyone. I mostly had crushes but...they didn't really work out that well. So I hope you like it if you I thank you.

You start out as friends, but as the days go by you begin to get butterflies everytime you see them. You've never felt this way before so you're a little conserned(sp?). They play their little games with you and you smile and you even turn a little red. You tell your friends, they say you're in love. You're turning red and you can feel the heat from your face as you stand shocked and embarressed. You didn't want to hear that. When you go home you pace your room and tel yourself you don't love them but your heart says differently. You think you've gooten rid of them, never going to feel like that again, so you turn on your radio and you hear the song "Only One" by Yellowcard. As the song goes on you think about them and the butterflies come back. The next day on the bus they stop playing those games you liked so much, they tell you that they're going to sit at a different table for lunch. You're a little saddened by this but you try not to show it and tell them ok. At lunch you question yourself on wether you should ask him out or not and you come back to what your heart and brain are telling you. You don't know which way to go. A few days later you write him a note to tell him how much you and your friends miss him at the table. He comes down to chill, you share a few laughs, but then someone you've never seen in your life comes up and says "You're "friend" wants you back over there." They both leave and you're feeling depressed. All of your friends look at you concerned if you're going to be ok. You say you've gotten over them but you know it's just a lie to get them off your back for a bit, and as you see them leave to go hang out with their new friends your heart is breaking in two. As the weeks rolled by they start to ignor you, going the other way and leaving you as you were once before. Alone. Now you stand cofussued. Should you go talk to them or should you have said somethig before? You feel as if you're falling into a black hole and no one is there to help you. You just keep falling and falling and it's as if it goes on forever. And as the bell rings and you gather your stuff together you turn toward him as he's leaving for his next class and tell yourself: "I love you and I always will."

I wrote that a few days ago and decided to post it here. so i hope you liked it and please if you can or if you feel nice enough post a reply or send me mail. Arigato.

RurouniInu

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