I took an inkblot test on Tickle.com that told me my subconscious feelings are driven by love. It's got this whole big explination on it too-
Becca, your subconscious mind is driven most by Love
Your instinct to love and be loved is rooted very deeply in your subconscious and affects most of the decisions you make in life whether you are aware of it or not.
You inspire people to experience their true feelings of love and act kindly towards others. You also value your personal relationships more than most people.
Your unique capacity to love may be greater than those around you, which means you may have more to give in relationships than your friends or romantic partners do.
Your psyche is very rich; the more you learn about it, the more you will understand who you really are.
Weird, but cool.
Anyways, Monday night I had a dream that Jake came over to my house and we were in this room that was underwater. But you didn't get wet, you just couldn't breathe and it was hard to move around. I couldn't hold my breath, so I had to keep leaving the room to take a breath of fresh air and then come back. Then in the next part of my dream Jake and I were outside in the dark sitting on a bench, when my dad drives up and sits between us and starts talking.
I've been thinking about what that dream may mean. I know a lot about dreams, and this is all based on what I think-
In the first part of my dream, Jake and I are underwater, where it's hard to breathe and hard to move around. We also couldn't talk. I think that may mean I find it hard to talk to Jake about things, or so my subconscious is telling me. Either that or he takes my breath away, just like going underwater does, lol. Another thing I noticed is that I kept going back into the underwater room. I wonder if this might mean I'm kinda clingy, sweatdrop
In the next part, Jake and I are out on a bench when my dad comes over and sits between us. That may mean my subconscious either thinks my dad is coming between me and my relationship with Jake, or he will in the future, because dreams can predict the future sometimes.
But Tuesday night I had a different dream, where it's the first day of school and Karl breaks up with Chelsea and goes out with me. We walk around school all close together, and he has his arm around me.
I think I know what this dream may mean too. It means I want a guy (not just Karl, any guy really, in my dream this certain "guy" is simply portrayed by Karl) to be there to hold me. Not like Jake, who can't even call me on the phone so all we can do is talk online.
Jake told me that if I find someone I'm happier with than him then he wants me to be with that guy instead. But I don't want any other guy, I want him. I just want him here with me, not a million miles away in Oklahoma. And what if I do find someone else, but it doesn't work out, will he take me back? And what if he finds someone he likes more than me? I don't want to let him go, not as easily as he would me.
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