Hopefully u read the journal entry before this one...it will help u understand what i am feeling in the slightest right now. As some of u may know...i went to France for a week a couple weeks ago...the reason i went is because i may be moving there.
It may be a bit shocking for you to know...but when i'm not on for a long period of time during the beginning of summer...now you know...
I hoped by writing this i may release some of my feelings and feel better...i'm sorry to say i am not...
I'm leaving everything i ever truly loved...including some of the new friends i made...like Emma...i feel like i have known her forever..but i have not...i wouldn't consider her "new" but we haven't known each other for even a year yet...so i guess she is...
And Morgan...shes definitely not a "new" friend...but...i just now started getting really close to her...and now i have to leave her behind too...
Of course i have friends i've known for ages that i'm leaving...like Lindsay...shes my big sister most definitely...
And Kyle...i've known him almost my whole life..we've definitely had our ups and downs...but we've always had a strong bond no one could break...
The ppl above...they are my life..now leaving them is gonna be...heartbreaking...the thing is...is that...they are all two years older than me...and so when i come back...they'll be in college...thats gonna be the hardest of all...the fact i will never have a complete bond with ALL of them again...the only person that is my age on that list is Morgan...and i barely see her as it is....
I hope that this look into my heart has been...idk...enjoyable???...i hope not...but it helps you better understand me...
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