I'm sad today.. I've come to the bitter realization that life isnt so fair. Not only is it not fair, I can not seem to justify why it's not fair; Maybe I wont. I wonder alot about "Him" or "this&that", I think so hard my head spins.. I cry alot more then I should, and though i'm trying to be strong(It's a front) I can't seem to shake that "what if" feeling. The feeling of, being lost and never being found. I can honestly say i'm not as forgiveing as i once was; I'm learning to be strong. I wont allow myself the pleasure of misery any more.. I'd rather feel immense pain and sorrow, then nothing.
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