Currently Listening to: Nothing, again. I didn't feel like opening itunes.
Ok, just now, I got my fortune (from a cookie).
A new friend helps you break out of an old routine
And your lucky numbers are 7, 19, 17, 33, 36, 44
Ok, here's my routine, new friend; I like STBB. But recently, I have decided to move on. It's not like he wouldn't be worth it (he probably would), but apparently I (or rather, my mom thinks I) have alot on my plate and that I'm not responsible because I haven't gotten a B on my test since October. I'm sorry, I'm just upset, because my mom thinks all I think about is social life. But consider this, if I want to be a psycologist, do you think all I would want to think about is my social life?
Hmm, well anyways, first period started my journey to get over STBB. When we had a group thingy going on, I was forced to sit in his seat. I was disappointed, because if we did, we'd be in the same group. Ugh, there you go again, liking STBB, STOP IT! Then, he had to get something out of his binder, so he had to come to his desk and get it, under the desk, actually. So there he was, minding his own business, and I was trying to mind my own, until I looked down, and saw his hair. OMG stop that! You sound as infatuated as Kate! So I took a deep breath and hoped it would be over soon. He then recited two verses of the poem, The Highwayman. Of course I had to look at him, but what if I stare. Would I care? Would I seem like the Annoying One, and just turn away. You know, maybe he won't turn over here, and I could just stare away... Gosh, this is harder than I thought.
I felt so mad at myself. I needed to get over him for my own good. Though, I didn't want to say it never happened, but again, this is for my own good.
*sighs* Then comes second period, which as just as bad. Working on my science project, I was looking at somebody else's. Then STBB looks over to look at Kit and My's project. Then I turn over there, to you know, hope he didn't take any of my supplies. Hi, STBB, I hope you don't mind me looking at my own project, but really looking at you... Soon after, I needed some tape. STBB needed some scissors. Total coincidence that they were in the same drawer. I finally did some good, and waited until he left so I could get in the drawer. I wish I didn't do that, and just went in there like he didn't care.
Once the bell rang, I left the class, sad inside. Then STBB come around, somehow cheering me up saying, "Hey, hey, Sinai, you didn't clean your space, huh, huh, you didn't, did ya? Yeah, you didn't, huh, why'd you didn't?" Or something like that. It was funnier when he said it, actually. I couldn't help but smile. Hey?! He made a funny, kay? But it made me realize, he has never made a funny towards me like that. This thought came to me, maybe he likes me, because it felt like he was saying it in a "I-know-you-like-me-so-I'm-just-gonna-flirt-just-because" way. WAIT. He knows I like him? No, that can't be right. Tori soo did not tell him.
But it reminded me to this morning, when his bus was early, and I saw him in the cafeteria while I was eating my breakfast, looking forward, smiling. Weird look I thought. But then, Tori rides his bus. All these thought were running through my head.
There is no way I'm going to get over him soon
To make a long story short, STBB made another funny in fifth period. Then he looked at me. Then when we were trying to get in line, he was looking forard, oddly almost trying to see if he could get either in front of me, or behind me. Hm. Then in line, he was behind me. Then I told him to spread the word that I was going emo tomorrow. The next seven people that went by, he told them about it. Haha, he made another funny...
I wonder what he would do, if I told him he could babysit my monkey in my locker for a while...
Well, more tommorow. Wish me luck on trying to be emo.
heart ,
S I N A I
Ps, Paramore got nominated for a grammy! I hope they win, THEY BETTER WIN.
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