In the darkness of my mind
Where I myself will try to bind
For safety reasons no one knows
But deep inside my true pain shows
My sanity is lost somewhere
And sometimes I don't even care
If I ever find myself again
Or stay lost in the dark 'til then
And have my mind feast on itself until there's nothing left
I stay trapped in my mind with shadow demons at their best
Or someone comes to rescue me
But wishful thinking can never be
So I stay here in the dim
And watch my life grow cold and grim
In isolation I suffer none
Unless dwell thoughts of only one
That I have longed for all my life
To hopefully be my future wife
And now to find that not the case
I stare Death hard in the face
Waiting breathlessly for my time to come
Until all is given and then some
Passing out cold on the floor
And see myself at a dark door
I open wide
And go inside
And what horror do I find
Just being trapped back in my mind
With only thoughts of you....
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Father into your hands I commend my spirit, Father into your hands. Why have you forsaken me? In your eyes foresaken me? In your thoughts foresaken me? In your heart foresaken me? Trust in my self-righteous suicide. I cry when angels deserve to die...
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sweatdrop The last few lines can be taken a few different ways and only one is the right one....
Just being trapped back in my mind
With only thoughts of you....
This means that as of late I've been thinking more and more about you and the fact that I can't do anything about it is driving me mad gonk (crazy)... The only way I really cheer up is if I can distract myself and that's usually through company. Here, when it mentions "horror" and "being trapped" and "only thoughts of you", it signifies that I can't stop thinking about you and that (as of recently) I have no one and nothing to distract me. I'm all alone in my insane li'l noggin' and you're the only thing filling up most of it.. xp so basically I'm going nuts
Other ways it could have been taken but are scream wrong!! scream :
-Thinking of you is a burden
-I hate being or thinking of you
-Even when I'm dead you won't leave me alone
-Even passed death I'm still troubled by you
etc... etc.... etc.....
I love you so much, words cannot explain, and that's why I can't stop thinking of you and that's why I'm going bonkers 9.6;;