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Thoughts of a Darkened Mind
Warning : Extremely depressing. Keep away from small rodents.
Suicide Redemption
She no longer loves me, wants me to let go, and there's probably no chance of a future. I ruin everything I come in contact with. This is my fourth failed relationship, and maybe it's me. I'm sweet, sensitive, and give plenty of attention, but I'm overly paranoid. And I'm ridiculed for my fears? Well, it was offensive to a degree, but a break-up over it? She could've just fussed me out. I'm passive, I would've listened. No one wants to understand that I"m different, and most don't like it. Sorry that I so sensitive and caring that after 2 months I still love and care for you and don't want anyone else. I haven't touched anyone else, aside from friendly hugs, I haven't looked anyone's way, but you seemed to have moved on, fallen out of love, and have it stuck in your head that I'm an insensitive a**. Well, I was always there, and I'm not gonna run off again like I did, unless you do something that really hurts me. But frankly, I shall live most of my life wanting to die. So, I've learned a lot, and I've only lost more trust in people, and now I see myself as the scum of the earth trying to make a pretty fairy tale world....
Well ******** me over than. No hope in life. No love either......






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Lady Mikira
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commentCommented on: Thu Nov 22, 2007 @ 04:19pm
You didn't trust me. You stopped trusting me. You were always afraid that I'd cheat, when you know very damn well that I wouldn't.
You pulled away from me. You made yourself distant. I didn't break up with you because I didn't think you were sensitive enough. Just the facts above. I can't be with someone who pulls away from me, someone who doesn't trust me to the full extent. ESP if they know that I have never cheated on ANY guy before and that my parents wouldn't let me neither.


commentCommented on: Thu Nov 22, 2007 @ 06:28pm
Well, sorry. I got paranoid. But we could've just talked it out.
Anyways, the heartbreak has really made me put myself back together,
and I'm sorry for anything I've done, but I'm not the only one at
fault. People told me you were being a b***h to me, at I drowned it
out because I loved you and new it wasn't that harsh. But you haven't
treated me very well either. Since our break-up, that is. So, I'm tired
of having the blame thrown at me. YOU broke-up with me. So, technically,
you're responsible to a degree for these outcomes. That might be mean, and
you'll probably call it unfair, but it's true. I'm so sorry if this has offended you,
but I'm not gonna be a passive little s**t anymore. Sorry.... And sad thing is,
though I'm upset and quite frankly somewhat angry, I still love you....
And that's because out of all my relationships, our's was the best.



Lord Farious
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