I haven't posted in a while... and I blame Vana'diel. Lately, I've been literally forced into the eternal, mind-numbing grind in an effort to do... something. What is it? The hell if I know. All I see are a bunch of numbers and I'm trying to get this number to reach the other one. It stopped being fun, feeling more and more like a job each time I log on. If I wanted a job, then there are plenty on the "outside" and I get actual money for those. The FFXI purist would read this and then call me "weaksauce" or some other obscure derogatory term but spending days upon days of grinding/crafting/meriting/etc. for that one lvl or item does not evoke feelings of rapture and adoration from me. Sure you could mention HNMs, Merits, etc. but let me break it down for you.
HNMs. Basically you would need what amounts to a small army to take down one of these. Standard end-game content. Yawn. So, why go through the trouble? There are probably a few linkshells that do it for the sheer accomplishment (and to them, you have my undying praise) but really, why do you join HNM linkshells in the first place? Items, of course. Items only this monster of a beast will drop. And let's add that, quite possibly, more than one person in your mini-army wants said items. Now you must go through the motions over and over until everyone is satisfied. Again, standard end game borefest.
Now, Merits. I can go on and on about Merits but this just about sums it up: Max lvl grind. That's right. After slaving under the grind to 75/37, you get... another grind. I think I'll stop here before I hurt myself.
Honestly, what is there that is gonna keep me interested besides the daily "log-on-or-get-raped" threat? While it doesn't help that I pretty much signed a blood oath to keep playing, I would very much like some semblance of motivation in this endless world of grind. It's gotten to the point where I'm half-asleep while I'm in a party and as a tank, that's pretty bad.
On a not-so-unrelated note, it seems like my "Memoirs of a Slayer" journal entry won't be seen anytime soon. Again, blame Vana'diel. Instead, I offer a little something that tells a bit of what I went through:
Yep... Quite bad, if you get past the chibi-ness...
Come to think of it... I really need those back now...
*goes off in search of the "Scary Elf Lady"*
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