Yes, another depressing rant. deal with it. i have no other wayof expressing this, at least nto without someone getting mad at me, so i do it this way.
i ahve come to the basic conclusion that i am a very pathetic being. there is nothing remotely good about me that i can find.
First, my drawing abilities suck. that's the one thing i used to be confident in, and i've come to terms with the fact that i can't draw. people try to cnsol e about it, but i t dosen't help much. 'oh, i was liek that too at your age, i started drawing around that time'. ********, i've been drawing since i was younger than ths, and i STILL suck. i'll suck for the rest of my life, and i know i will.
second, i don't even know why my friends still role paly with me. my writing abilities are s**t. i've already had one of my best friends on here, Lack_luster_soul stop role playing with me sort of out of the blue. i'm not angry, but it sure didn't help my self esteem. i just wish people would tell em they don't want to roele play with me anymore. i'm tired, sick, and i don't feel liek dealing with random rejections from friends... kay? i'm just tired of it.
hell if anyone reads this, you don't have to and it dosen't matter. i'm just voicing the fact that i've come to a revelation that i am in fact ganuinely pathetic.
off to see if soul-sama hates me or not.
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