Once again, the rat race of humanity and it's inevitabilities have got me caught up and my mind reels from the possibilities and the endless combinations of greed and envy.
What do I mean by rat race? Well, just like with anything in this world, there are governing forces that keep people in line, or at least, within the same line as everyone else. Because of the way the world has gone, the only two governing forces ( blatantly, of course ) is Greed (money) and Envy ( how much and what people do with it ). With a new job and the higher pay raise which Im not used to, it opens up a lot of new choices for me but at the same time, it's almost scaring me because of the too many choices I have.
A car, a place, travel, partying, everything and nothing at the exact same time. I can choose so many things but I can't decide, or more, I won't decide because that means a major change and everyone is afraid of change, no matter how much they say they don't.
To change is to get better, yes? But not always. Some people go insane, is that better? Some people realize that little children are their fetish, is that better? So what if I move out? What if I get that new car? These fears coarse through me faster and faster as my heart pumps harder, adrenaline seething through me.
But then again... that moment of calm arises when stress gets too much. When your mind simply shuts off and you can just relax in the now. That is bliss, the moment where there is no care, no worry. But how does one stay in such a state with that race running about you? Stay in the sidelines, live life your way, against the one way street of economics and power.
How?
If you can tell me the way to do this, the way to keep identity and keep sanity within a world were everyone is mad.. then please, tell me. Until then, I will be here, doing my job, making the money that fuels the governing forces and hope that a choice presents itself faster than a cheshire cat can disappear and show it's grin.
After all.. we're all mad here.
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Calamity and Insanity Happen.. yet only in doses before the calm. I am the brief Disaster caused by such a mess. These are my tales of chaos and destruction. Enjoy, yet please.. be careful as not always are the things in here stable.
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Money is money. I wouldn't mind going back to the days when we traded and bartered for goods and services... but if your really worried - do something. I'd say I hate money... but because of my surroundings... if I want just about anything I have you use it. Save it for a rainy day?
Donate to your favorite charity. Buy some toys for an orphanage. Adopt an animal from a public zoo!
*bah* - time to get out of work - - - - and my thought process just started!....
.... I'll be back....