Sometimes i just think about sucide because the stress is so much on my life.It sucks School,Family,problem give me a break how can I handle it.Lately its been that way with my cousin and her boy problems.God its a repeating cycle.Then theres knowing that I'm the good child with good grade can do one thing wrong or will be compared to my sister.That is so much pressure its not funny.Anyway why I will never comit sucide is becasue I'm to much of a chicken,what people will think,and my parents.A bunch of people think if someone comits sucide there weak maybe its because whatever they do things wont get better.That next step will make things 10x worse.Then my family I'm worried becuase my sister is the bad child who stays up late and calls people at 4 in the morning that are in tennssee.My sister with probaly be so much worse also knowing my parents heartache.the alst thing is that a couple of friends that would keep me here.Chad dear god he is such a good friend but he probaly understand that or say what I did was wrong.Jen I dont know what she would do probaly wouldnt care with the 5 boyfriends she has.Shalee would call me weak.Others might cry some might just be shocked but they would forget and just leave the story alone.
Later,
Roit
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