I guess I should just relax and try not to think about it and try to just work things out in my mind...But the thought of being happy again seems so impossible I haven't been happy since August, I barley remember the feeling. I wish I had someone to remind me of how it felt to be happy...but none of my other wishes have come true why should this one be any different ?
On top of that I'm getting ill from cutting I believe. [[which I've been doing far too much of]] My eyes are rolling back into my head at random times and my muscles switch while my hands and arms and legs shake...it doesn't seem too good.
Well I'm done lamenting for tonight I'll just have to wait until my love gets online so I can feel better and such... heart
xoxo
Lily Von Trapp
