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so yeah i aint dead yet but i could be whos to say im not in hell sending this ............. ok im not but still the randomness that comes from my head maybe i should blow it off that would stop it .........and the headaches wait no strach that it would cause just one big headache.......... maybe slit my wrist no cant do that than i would be called emo........ damn emos make me wont to kill someone (maybe them) when will they realize the greast pain in life is to keep liveing and not dyeing ohwell i cant help there a bunch of dumbs asses..........speacking of asses mine itches hmmmm i dont think that belongs here oh well its here and if you dont like it ******** you..........im in love i like love it keeps away the nagging thoughts of sucide becuse i know if i killed myself it would hurt her (and she might kill herself) wich i so dont want that so it keeps me liveing......damn life....... ohwell im stuck here for now.... i wonder if i should say something else s**t i just did and i just did it again damn it now i cant stop talking these words are leaveing my mouth like blood from a cut wrist (damn emo will they just ******** die) they took away for me to kill my self becuse i dont wont to die and be rembered as emo wernt they thinking of others when they thought of that so many lost souls wanting to kill themselfs now cant becuse they dont want to be rembered as ******** emos damn i cant kill my self anyway reason mentiod before hand well bye for now i have to go and think up good ways to kill ones self with out being concidered emo im thinking liveing life might be a good one than when you die no one will know you were killing yourself all those years or impailing your self