See, 2 years or so ago I dated this guy named Ryan. Man, best 10 months of my life. Drama seemed nonexistant, every day started off great. Then I noticed that I was getting moody and mean and all around bitchy. Told Ryan that I wanted a break, but I hoped that he'd gotten the hint that it was only temporary. Found out not a few weeks later that him and my friend Colleen had started dating. Really hit hard for me, but I gathered up the broken pieces of my heart and moved on. What would have been our first year together came and went. I've always hated the date Sept. 5. Anyways, that October I got diagnosed with depression and got placed on meds. I'd made the right decision by 'breaking up' with him.
I dated a good 5 guys after him. Most of them were more than 3 month relationships. So I've had some pretty strong relationships, but every time I thought of Ryan I still get butterflies.
I swear I've moved on, but sometimes I wonder what would happen if we'd take a second chance at being together. We're older now, more mature, but we stopped talking so we know nothing about each other anymore. We're like strangers. What sucks is the guy that pretty much introduced us moved away, my last connection to him was gone.
Colleen and him dated for a good time, then she broke up with him. As far as I know they're not together, but I have heard rumors that they're dating secretly.
I just don't know what to do anymore. I've tried dating other guys, tried putting the pain and sadness aside. Yeah, you usually never end up with your first love or anyone you date before graduation, but most girls find other guys that they feel the same connection with, I didn't get that with other guys, only Ryan.
I keep beating myself up, wondering what would have happened if I had just stuck it out with him, if I hadn't broke up with him. Would we still be together? Would my life have turned out different?
I dated a good 5 guys after him. Most of them were more than 3 month relationships. So I've had some pretty strong relationships, but every time I thought of Ryan I still get butterflies.
I swear I've moved on, but sometimes I wonder what would happen if we'd take a second chance at being together. We're older now, more mature, but we stopped talking so we know nothing about each other anymore. We're like strangers. What sucks is the guy that pretty much introduced us moved away, my last connection to him was gone.
Colleen and him dated for a good time, then she broke up with him. As far as I know they're not together, but I have heard rumors that they're dating secretly.
I just don't know what to do anymore. I've tried dating other guys, tried putting the pain and sadness aside. Yeah, you usually never end up with your first love or anyone you date before graduation, but most girls find other guys that they feel the same connection with, I didn't get that with other guys, only Ryan.
I keep beating myself up, wondering what would have happened if I had just stuck it out with him, if I hadn't broke up with him. Would we still be together? Would my life have turned out different?
