Hello, Journal.
I haven't written a very logical entry in quite some time.
I'm writing, because of the fact that I need to open up.
There's a few people, making my life ceep rolling, and i feel like i should thank them more than i am.
I feel so cold inside. And mum says my heart seems to be gone.
I don't like saying 'I love you'. Those are three words i could easily live without.
I want to say how much I care about people, but it's hard.
Once I say I love you. There's no coming back.
So if i say it, i mean it. I really mean it. Because it's something i have only said to very few people in my life.
Even though I have thought it more often than actually said it..
Martin. [iRaven]
This is my ex. I miss him still, because he was probably the biggest love I ever had.
We're not meant for eachother though, and i know he knows it, deep inside.
We're still friends, close friends, since we know so much about each other.
He's wonderful, and so funny when he wants to. I try to help him trough his problems, but I feel bad at it. I said I could be your superman, but I failed you again.
I'm sorry for not being the one to save you.
Stephan.
I met him in the most ironic way.
My friend Megan, had made a thread about Masturbation, and she wanted me to ceep it alive. So I went there, and I was being ignored.
All of a sudden, Stephan starts talking to me. We had a very deep conversation, for at least an hour. I felt like i could trust him from a start, so I told him a few of my deepest thoughts, and I listened to his dreams, and hopes.
From a start, i felt like he was wonderful, and he's gorgeous too.
As time passes, he and I grow closer together.
He scares me. Because I care about him so much.
I just hope he won't slip out of my grip..
Hampus.
Dude, you're great. We've known eachother for more than one year now,
And you still make me laugh, like no one else.
He sent me a random letter yesterday, it was a cookie in it.
I got so happy. I haven't met him, but it's damn sure a matter of time.
I'll meet him, and we'll rock swedens ******** socks of!
Hanna.
We meet a lot, and you fully rock, girl.
We halfly made out, even though you're more straight than I am.
We just took it as a joke, and cept hanging out.
If I was a lesbian, I'd fall for her in a flash.
She's gorgeous, funny, and she has a wonderful personality.
Tim.
This is my TimTimboy.
He's awesome, even though he doesn't feel so good right now.
I'll try to be his superman, even though I have a feeling the superman-work
isn't made for me. I'm too small to be a big man. D:
He's great, yet slightly perverted. I love his personality.
He's just TimTim.<3
Hang in there.
Beatrice.
That's my brother's girlfriend, but she has become one of my dearest friends.
She's the one I manage to talk to the most.
I won't forget the time we spent together, ever.
for example.
I had a big fight with my family, and they were all sitting laughing at me, and the way I talk, and dress. I started sobbing, and ran outside. Beatrice followed me, and didn't leave even though I yelled at her. She hugged me when I was the most angry, and it all passed by. I cried in her arms, and she didn't leave.
I love that girl.
And Marco.
My dear brother.
He's the rock in my life, and a lot of the things I stand for are about him.
He's protective, yet damn wonderful. He's always making me laugh, and he's taking care of me.
We play together, Me - The voice, and the bassist, and he's the guitar player.
We have so much fun, and i hope that'll never change.
My father.
My father's the best.
He's the man that wakes me up in the middle of the night saying.
" I can't sleep. Let's go out dancing. Want a beer, hun?"
He's awesome. And he'll even let me get a tattoo next summer!
Though he lives in italy, he's closer to me than my mother is.
I should call him more often..
Myself.
I'm scaring myself, because I don't know how I work anymore.
I'm confusing, and just weird.
Can't belive you guys still accept me, even though i have more problems than anything else.
I haven't written a very logical entry in quite some time.
I'm writing, because of the fact that I need to open up.
There's a few people, making my life ceep rolling, and i feel like i should thank them more than i am.
I feel so cold inside. And mum says my heart seems to be gone.
I don't like saying 'I love you'. Those are three words i could easily live without.
I want to say how much I care about people, but it's hard.
Once I say I love you. There's no coming back.
So if i say it, i mean it. I really mean it. Because it's something i have only said to very few people in my life.
Even though I have thought it more often than actually said it..
Martin. [iRaven]
This is my ex. I miss him still, because he was probably the biggest love I ever had.
We're not meant for eachother though, and i know he knows it, deep inside.
We're still friends, close friends, since we know so much about each other.
He's wonderful, and so funny when he wants to. I try to help him trough his problems, but I feel bad at it. I said I could be your superman, but I failed you again.
I'm sorry for not being the one to save you.
Stephan.
I met him in the most ironic way.
My friend Megan, had made a thread about Masturbation, and she wanted me to ceep it alive. So I went there, and I was being ignored.
All of a sudden, Stephan starts talking to me. We had a very deep conversation, for at least an hour. I felt like i could trust him from a start, so I told him a few of my deepest thoughts, and I listened to his dreams, and hopes.
From a start, i felt like he was wonderful, and he's gorgeous too.
As time passes, he and I grow closer together.
He scares me. Because I care about him so much.
I just hope he won't slip out of my grip..
Hampus.
Dude, you're great. We've known eachother for more than one year now,
And you still make me laugh, like no one else.
He sent me a random letter yesterday, it was a cookie in it.
I got so happy. I haven't met him, but it's damn sure a matter of time.
I'll meet him, and we'll rock swedens ******** socks of!
Hanna.
We meet a lot, and you fully rock, girl.
We halfly made out, even though you're more straight than I am.
We just took it as a joke, and cept hanging out.
If I was a lesbian, I'd fall for her in a flash.
She's gorgeous, funny, and she has a wonderful personality.
Tim.
This is my TimTimboy.
He's awesome, even though he doesn't feel so good right now.
I'll try to be his superman, even though I have a feeling the superman-work
isn't made for me. I'm too small to be a big man. D:
He's great, yet slightly perverted. I love his personality.
He's just TimTim.<3
Hang in there.
Beatrice.
That's my brother's girlfriend, but she has become one of my dearest friends.
She's the one I manage to talk to the most.
I won't forget the time we spent together, ever.
for example.
I had a big fight with my family, and they were all sitting laughing at me, and the way I talk, and dress. I started sobbing, and ran outside. Beatrice followed me, and didn't leave even though I yelled at her. She hugged me when I was the most angry, and it all passed by. I cried in her arms, and she didn't leave.
I love that girl.
And Marco.
My dear brother.
He's the rock in my life, and a lot of the things I stand for are about him.
He's protective, yet damn wonderful. He's always making me laugh, and he's taking care of me.
We play together, Me - The voice, and the bassist, and he's the guitar player.
We have so much fun, and i hope that'll never change.
My father.
My father's the best.
He's the man that wakes me up in the middle of the night saying.
" I can't sleep. Let's go out dancing. Want a beer, hun?"
He's awesome. And he'll even let me get a tattoo next summer!
Though he lives in italy, he's closer to me than my mother is.
I should call him more often..
Myself.
I'm scaring myself, because I don't know how I work anymore.
I'm confusing, and just weird.
Can't belive you guys still accept me, even though i have more problems than anything else.
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