So. Things are needed to be said. For one, Eric. My god. I just don't know how to say this nicely .. as if I could though cause remember, I'm a b***h. But anyways, I'll say this the only way I can ... You're stupid. You just have no idea how I act. Even though I told you like, my life story, which I'm sure ment nothing to you because hey, you fail at life, I .. opened myself to you. I seem to have a problem with doing that to people that .. end up not being my friend. -sigh- There are so many other things I need to say .... But I can't seem to word them the way I want to.
But in case you're wondering. No. I will never say I'm sorry. Why? Because I didn't do anything out of my character. I'm always like that. It's just that maybe that was the first time you've ever seen that side of me. And no. People will never be nice to each other. Ever. It's a man eat man world. So really, if you couldn't even handle a few hours of me and Britt "drilling" you ... Then you're not ready. Don't change. Stay in your basement. Do nothing new. At least .. not until you're ready.
Every day you waste not talking to me is another day I slip away. I'm seriously starting to not care about whether or not you go kill yourself. Right now, I think it would be a good idea cause really, I think you're a waste of whatever space you're in. Which is what? The size of a chair? ... Look. I'm tough. Big deal. It's my way of saying .. I care.
Not to mention .. that ... I have trust issues. Can you blame me? I mean .. no man that has ever been in my life has been there for more than a few months. Whether it be my dad or .. a friend. (Even though Stephen lasted 3 years ..) And .. it bothers me that ... well ... It bothered me when you would be all over Britt. I mean .. I liked you. And you still act like Britt's the only shot you got to make you happy. I just don't get it.
But, whatever. If you're going to act like some momma's boy that can't even handle his best friend .. Fine by me. Not the first time I've been through this so ... I'll be fine. That is unless .. you have something to say to me.
(hint: say you're sorry!)
In other news ... I'm freaking stressing out about finding this .. perfect boyfriend for me. I don't know .. I'm about to give up .... Again.
It's not going to well. >.>
I'm freaking jealous of Britt though .. She has choices! CHOICES! >:I No fair if you ask me .. But then again .. she's so much nicer than I am ... And no one likes a loud mouth who speaks their mind and is always honest .. -sigh-
I'm never going to find someone. ;-;
-sigh- ... Maybe school will be better .. I hope so. -.-
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