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Supposedly, its one of the biggest causes of death in teenagers today. Why? Because its the simplest solution to the most painful problems. But why kill yourself? Surely, no matter what scheme sticks its foot in your path amd trips you flat, life can still go on. So why do people (as a whole, not just the youth) find it easier to just end our life? Is it because the pain is to much to bear? I know this argument very well. Or is it because people of today's society are getting lazy? That sounds reasonable. Maybe we've grown spoiled, and if we can't have some things or some people, the world can't have us. Both of the latter two suggest that all people of suicide are weak, or selfish, or of course, lazy. Now, to many people who see things in black and white, this may very well be true. But to those of us who have seen the grey in between, its easy to be sympathetic. Even as I may be insulting myself, this isn't the right way. I do not agree so much in laziness and selfishness as I do weakness. A person who attempts suicide is at a weak set of mind. Now, this statement makes me seem cruel. This wasn't my intent. i have been in a weak stage, as many of us have. I am not attacking anybody. It takes a person of strong character to be able to get back on his/her feet, for even though a weak person is more succeptable to suicide, there are things in life that will cause a stronger character to fall to its knees, and that person may just as easily find a solution lying within the knife on the counter, or the alcohol in the pantry. And a person will look for that answer, and sometimes it will consume them. It consumed me. But I crawled out. And to get out I had to crawl over a thousand shards of glass that stood in my way to freedom. Freedom from myself. And it still nags me sometimes. Death tried to get me. Hell, I called him here myself. And I know people who didn't go as deep as I did. They saw the value of life. Thats what makes them so strong. And it shouldn't happen, but it does. And the solution is joy. Joy of small boy's laughter as you chase him through the house. Joy of reading to a little sister as she listens with wide, bright eyes. The joy of holding a friend who supports you through thick and thin, even if they shouldn't. And you can pull through it. Don't fall to the pain. You don't have to. There is always another way. And you can find it if you try.