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Today I met Lancer (lets just call him that)
OK I pretty much did nothing for the first half of te day sweatdrop . I slept till 2 then got something to eat, went on gaia then my best friend called and asked if I can come over. So we really didn't do anything except driv around. But just before I was going to leave we decided to see if Lancer was home (and guy that my best friend was trying to introduce me to, which we were trying to for an entire week...it seemed like he was avoiding her like everyone else does to her neutral ) Well I met him and he was totally hot!!!. OMG!! I wont tell you what he looks like but he was hot! Anyways at that moment I knew I liked him. But my best friend "clams" him. xp whatever. You know I love her and she is my best friend I truely do but she pisses me off sometimes. She treats me like a lackie. She bosses me around and everything. Its just in her personality to do that. But holy sushi cakes I am getting tired of it scream ! She acts like every guy likes her and that she is this hottest thing. Well actually I am her only friend. And all the guys cant stand her. She doesn't even bath reguarly, doesn't ware a bra or deorderent. I hardly ever get mad and I am not that mean. Its jsut I get tired of being in her shadow when she know that I have dated every guy shes ever wanted. I bet she fells that I am better than her, well I dunno. I am a very passive person I dont really bother anyone, and I am a follower not a leader. Its just , one time when we wanted to see it Lancer was home we got let in so I screamed forgetting that they had a killer dog the dog comes running and we just shut the door. I mean the dog was trying to kill us through the door. 1st of all she yelled at me for that. scream she knows that I have bad memory and we shouldn't be a house with a dog trained to kill! adn 2nd Lancers parents are sounding like a really bad family. They trained their dog to kill anyone it didn't know. Which pissed me off because animals are for loving not for ripping faces off. Why would anyone be that mean to train an animal to kill. Also everytime we go to see if he is home they are like "i dunnoo" what kind of parent does that. OMFG!! Makes me glad that I don't have much of a family because either he is out or he is busy doinf chores. I think that whole family bull s**t is stupid. So I am going to prove to my best firend that I am better than her. I let down my ego so she can feel better. You see what I am doing is I am going to lose weight start taking real good of myself and putting my best foot forward to become a better person. I know it sounds mean and all but its just that I am tired of not even being looked at when I talk to a guy with her. She flirts with every guy we talk to. It annoys that s**t out of me. She tottally need to see that she needs to clean up her act or she is going to be alone for the rest of her life. I was just feeling like that today. I am going to talk to my therepist about it tommrow.
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