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I know I stated in a previous entry that I would gladly spend the rest of my life alone, but lately I've felt a growing emptiness inside me and I can't help but notice it. I've tried for a century to pretend I was fine, but I can't keep this act up much longer. Just yesterday we held a ball at my coven. Daemon had his girlfriend at his side, my best friend Christophe had his wife and daughter (named after me), and there I was...Young Queen...they forgot to add single to the title. Granted, I had my fair share of male attention, but it just didn't feel right. It was obvious they were only interested in the status that came along with me, and I soon found myself taking shelter in the back gardens.
Ever since I can remember, the gardens have always provided a solace to me. I remember as a child running through them, my mother and father always within eyesight. Daemon was always in the city, so it was just my parents and me. Father would play tag with me while Mother would watch, warning him to go easy on me and then laughing as I ran circles, literally, around him. After my parents' death, the garden still was there for me, and I spend much more time there. It was actually in those gardens that I met my late fiance...I don't remember much about him sadly...
*sigh* I wish someone would see me for Destiny, and not for the title that comes with. I know that I'm asking for something close to a miracle, and that this isn't a fairy tale, but it can't hurt to dream. To hope, yes, but to dream...there's no harm in that, is there?