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I've been trying oh so long and so damn hard to get this out of my chest but no one simply understand, at least the ones I least expect to understand do, and that impresses me a lot, knowing that at least there are few people who can at least understand every dark little thought and feeling I write.

I stretched my hands into the bit of light that was shining in front of me, I crossed over the end of the shadows just to see the beauty of it, but when I saw the light shining over my hands, I felt the burning rage on them, I couldn't stand the pain so I had no other choice left than to turn back and watch it glow. Such beaming light caught my attention, I looked helplessly into it, but I did not see any kind of ending in it, as if it came from the heavens high above... reaching down to the darkest place I was in. Impressed and motivated by it, I held back my arms and fell down to the ground, as if some kind of extraordinary draft came out of nowhere and struck me, my feet fell into the light, I was crying and screaming, as I thought this was goodbye.

I closed my eyes and began to think where could I have possibly gone wrong, and in the middle of my never ending thoughts, I realized, I did not felt any kind of pain from where the light were toughing me. I opened my eyes and saw that nothing was happening to me, confused and puzzled what could it be, that my hands burnt but my feet don't, I glared at the upcoming light, as if it wanted to consume me, as if it wanted me to be part of it, but I held back, I was not ready for it, instead I crawled into my master's arms, fearing he would punish me for what I have had done. Instead, he looked at me with glaring reddish eyes, tenderness I could feel from within him as he held me tightly in his arms.

I felt him whisper, tender loving words "Do not be afraid my love, I am here for you, I am everywhere you want me to be, I am within you, I am what keeps you alive, I am what makes you make things right, I am the love within you, you shall never be afraid, you are never alone". He expressed as I cried, he slowly reached into my face, taking away my tears, I looked into his eyes, as they slowly turned white, with blue linings, he clearly was something good. He was there in my time of need, he always shed my tears away, he always understood me when no one would, he always carried me in my dismay, every time I felt dead, he was there to revive me in any way he could find, because to him, everything seemed to be possible. He held my arm, smiled at me as he made me walk into where the light was.

He smiled once more, and let my hand go, he vanished within the light, I knew he wanted me to go there as well, but I didn't knew if to or not, I wasn't ready, I was scared, I was unable to move no matter how hard I tried, I stood there into the blindness in my eyes, my heart beating faster, stronger, I only could think, what would become of me...