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[18:39] OGAMER0912: i want to crawl in a hole and have no social contact
[18:39] chicobling15: T__T
[18:39] chicobling15: Can I come with you?
[18:40] OGAMER0912: no, i dont fel like a movie this week
[18:40] chicobling15: =[
[18:40] chicobling15: What's wrong?
[18:42] OGAMER0912: i want to go back to camp and live there alone
[18:42] chicobling15: What about me?
[18:42] chicobling15: Did I do something wrong?
[18:42] OGAMER0912: im sick of hurting people
[18:42] chicobling15: Why? hurting people is fun, especially when said person is Bobby >3
[18:43] OGAMER0912: people do nothing but hurt me, i want a break from it
[18:44] chicobling15: I'm sorry, I don't mean to hurt you
[18:44] OGAMER0912: u dont do it as much
[18:44] chicobling15: =[
[18:44] chicobling15: As much
[18:44] chicobling15: Which means I still do it
[18:45] chicobling15: At least let me see you this week
[18:45] chicobling15: Then maybe I can make it up to you
[18:45] chicobling15: Or make you feel better
[18:46] OGAMER0912: idk, id rather just eveyone leave me alone, im sick of acting happy
[18:46] chicobling15: Then don't act happy
[18:46] chicobling15: Act sad
[18:47] chicobling15: You can act sad when you're around me
[18:47] chicobling15: Oh yeah, I went to Wal*Mart but I couldn't find the condoms.
[18:48] OGAMER0912: im not going to have sex
[18:48] OGAMER0912: anytime within the next 3 yrs
[18:48] chicobling15: That's okay
[18:48] OGAMER0912: im sik of physical stuff
[18:48] chicobling15: =[
[18:49] chicobling15: Do you want to break up with me?
[18:50] OGAMER0912: no
[18:50] OGAMER0912: i want to be alone from everything for awhile, im need to think
[18:50] chicobling15: even me?
[18:51] OGAMER0912: yes, i need pepin
[18:51] OGAMER0912: or joel
[18:51] chicobling15: o.O
[18:51] OGAMER0912: theyve each saved my life at least 10 times
[18:52] chicobling15: You saved my life
[18:52] chicobling15: Saturday night
[18:52] chicobling15: This really hurts you know
[18:52] OGAMER0912: im srry
[18:54] OGAMER0912: im messed up, i need to sort out my life, ive been suicidal for 2 yrs, and i cant stop it
[18:54] chicobling15: See a doctor, like I did
[18:55] OGAMER0912: im such a loser.
[18:56] OGAMER0912: i told myself i wouldnt let any camp girls hang off me, yet she talked to me all week, and wouldnt leave me alone.
[18:56] OGAMER0912: and for some reason all i can remember is she stole my lighter
[18:56] chicobling15: =[
[18:57] chicobling15: That sucks
[18:57] chicobling15: but it's okay that girls like you, that just means you're cool
[18:57] OGAMER0912: i dont care! they should go away
[18:58] chicobling15: =[
[18:58] OGAMER0912: girls bother me, if i talk to one cant stop, they pull my lifes story out of me!!!!!!!
[18:59] chicobling15: o.O
[19:00] OGAMER0912: i told kati i was bi, i only tell my closest friends that
[19:00] OGAMER0912: and she saw my wrists
[19:00] chicobling15: Is Kati the girl who was hanging off you?
[19:01] OGAMER0912: same
[19:01] chicobling15: Oh
[19:01] OGAMER0912: D< im sick of people
[19:02] chicobling15: People -are- sickening
[19:02] chicobling15: Don't worry, I'll be able to drive soon! And once I can drive people and have my own car, I'll drive us somewhere
[19:06] OGAMER0912: how can you stand me?
[19:06] chicobling15: Because I really like you. You've always been a great friend to me, better than any friend I've ever had. I love you
[19:08] OGAMER0912: i either make u cry or make you mad every other day
[19:08] OGAMER0912: u think im going to break up with you
[19:08] chicobling15: That's just the way I am
[19:08] chicobling15: I'm like that with everyone
[19:08] chicobling15: I expect the worst
[19:09] OGAMER0912: i dont pay attention to you, im a mess of un neccasary problems, im a boy scout, i dont have a car, or licence
[19:10] OGAMER0912: im not even funny
[19:10] chicobling15: What's wrong with being a boy scout?
I don't have a car or a license either.

You are too funny! You make me laugh all the time.
[19:11] chicobling15: And I don't care about any of that. You only didn't pay attention to me once. The rest of the time you're the perfect boyfriend. Perfect for me anyway
[19:11] chicobling15: Everyone relationship is going to have rough times
[19:11] OGAMER0912: people tell me im always flirting, how is that perfect
[19:12] chicobling15: It's not perfect, but it's okay.
[19:12] OGAMER0912: no its not! id never forgive you if you did it.
[19:13] chicobling15: Well there are things I'd never forgive you for, but flirting is okay. You don't mean to flirt, that's the main thing
[19:21] OGAMER0912: are you forgiving me because itsreally ok, or because you want me to be happy?
[19:22] OGAMER0912: or are u afraid we'll slpit
[19:22] chicobling15: Because it's really okay.
[19:22] chicobling15: I do kinda care, but it's okay because I know you don't mean to
[19:24] OGAMER0912: you know how bad that makes me feel? its like cheating. i dont deserve to be with anyone
[19:24] chicobling15: It's not like cheating. Did you kiss her? Did you tell her you loved her?
[19:24] OGAMER0912: its still like cheating
[19:25] chicobling15: How?
[19:27] OGAMER0912: it is to me, it shows intent for a relationship. i want to gouge my eyes out
[19:27] chicobling15: If it makes you feel so bad why did you do it?