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Do you want to know why I did it. Because of the love I felt. Me and her connected so much, and really knew what the other was feeling at that split second in time. We have love in the type of way where it never gets old. You always occupy me with friendship and love at the same time. Something she never did. The reason I did what I did was the connection I had with you two. Either way I tried to look at it, I had to severely hurt someones feelings to save anothers. I guess I was too naive, huh? I presume (Protecting Identity) still hates me, right? If he does, I thought so. If I had the long time I used to, I'd try to come and make things right.
Hell, I could do it next week, since Christmas is around the corner.
I really miss you. I miss all of you. I miss her, you, everyone. I've heard she coped pretty well about it, but have you? We had years of bonding and love, and she suddenly came out of nowhere and synced. It doesn't seem like such a fair trade, but as usual, I was very stupid at the time. Oh, the tragedy of a doofus as myself.
-_-" Just wanted to see if it worked. I didn't think it would, but I just had to see. As narrow minded as I am, I am pretty clear to the point.
^ December 13, 2006
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I kept that as a reminder to myself how I should be careful with my heart. How without trust, there is no love. I guess what hurt the most here is that I gave him my heart and soul blindly. I'll admit, I was young and had no clue of the world around me, but regaurdless of age, I still felt that universal let down. He goes on more.. telling me how he was afraid of commitment...and how he was stupid and sorry.
I Don't understand... I don't think I push people to that point. I do my best to keep my bussiness my own. I never force people into thinking they should spend forever with me. I just want them to be happy, even if it was for that moment. Not forever, but for as long as I made them happy. If they were happy I was happy. I'm not saying that I want people to walk all over me, or to think I'm some kind of cyborg programed only to please. That's far from it...
I beat myself up for when this happens to me. What do I do wrong? Please tell me,
 Sirenas · Sun Jul 08, 2007 @ 08:51pm · 0 Comments |
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