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i feel a pain in my chest it hurtz so much to find out she ******** sum one else.

she wont tell me who, but what she doesn't know is that i had this feeling from the start.

even though i knew it waz gunna end up like this, i still manege to fall for her.
i thought i can avoid it by not saying those forbidden wordz, but apperently i waz wrong.

even though we resently broke up be4 the intercorse with mr. no name.
it still hurtz.

this feeling i cant explain very well but heres how i can sum it up 4 u:

i feel RAGE from the evil half of me sadden with SORROW that sends a pain through my heart, as if its being taken away from me.
SHOCKING JULTZ through out my body, for i cant believe this is actually happening.
i've argued with the good/evil half demanding that they will go away so i can feel no more pain.

...the only way i can see it 2 make my self feel better is that its karma...yet even karma iznt even cutt'n it 4 me.

becuz this happend does this make me a bad bf, or a horrible desision maker...

should i continue 2 act like i dont know any thing just to hear the answer come out of her mouth?

i feel that i should run away from the problem, but nothing will change if i do it...it will only fallow me.

.....she pushed me away so i couldnt get hurt, but the one thing she tries to do on her own back fires.

now i feel misserable, she made me check out of my world of contempment into reality 4 good.

the only thing left from that place is the evil side of me an i want him 2 go away...

he tells me to go down there an fight mr. no name, and i tell him what will that solve!? NOTHING!

i will feel only lower than what i already am..... -_-