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Thyna's Wanderings
If you know what a kender is, you will understand. If not, this is going to be a collection of random stuff depending on how I feel, the events of the day, web sites, personal interests, trinkets, collectables and stuff from my pockets :)
Another death
This time it was my grandpa. I knew it would happen eventually. His heart was giving out on him, and it was only a matter of time.

Well, this morning I got a phone call from my Mom. His time had come.

Emotionally, I'm all over the place. I want to go back to bed and cry, but also run out onto the street and celebrate. My grandpa is a child molester. He abused my aunts when they were young, and also my sisters and I when I was 10. I'm finally free, I don't have to be angry at him anymore, and I don't have to fear him hurting anyone else.

I'm upset that I never got the chance to tell him, show him the amount of anger I still have against him. But my letter to him will have to do. I don't want to cause a scene out of respect to my family. He was their father and grandfather after all. May not have deserved the title, but it is hard to break family ties. Trust me I tried.

But anyway. He is gone. I am free, and I need to go cry. Kind of sounds odd doesn't it? But it is true. All of the emotions I have held against him for all of these years can finally be freed. Maybe I will find peace, maybe I can forget. The forgiveness part is a bit harder to do. But who knows. maybe one day.

Thyna
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  • User Comments: [1]
    Raeden Michelle
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    Thu Jun 21, 2007 @ 03:43am


    I applaud you in the way you handled the situation at hand. I know that you are more mature than I (in both age and wisdom) and in the time that I have spent on Gaia and in the guild, I have no one but you to thank for making it enjoyable.

    I will celebrate with you in this time of mixed emotions as I have gone through similar situations. For me, I'm not sure if it will be as easy to just write a letter. I love this person very much and understand his feelings very much, but I refuse to be near him alone. Anytime I see him, I make sure I have at least one other person with me. Its hard for me to think that he really did what he did to me.

    Again, I am truly glad that you are freed from the pain that was near you, but also am here if you need to talk about anything. Ever.


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