I really do not know what to do anymore. I wonder if I have screwed up on some things. Still I am in that position again. Asking myself if I did something wrong for him to mve on to somethings. How dare you be up on her and pay no attention to me at all. I am still to wonder what am I to him.
All these fun times we had together is really falling apart and 'Yes' I worry about it everyday. You seem to as if you want to ******** her or something. Do I really need to make you choose? Time is ticking and nothing have changed. When I am gone I will say that it was a fun experience and I had a great time being your friend. I don't think that it is best friend I should call it.
I hurts me so deeply to see you all up on her like that. It is not that I wouldn't want to see you with her, because she is a great person and all, but damn what in the hell did I do to deserve this? You may or may not see it, but I know you should know what the hell I am talking about. You know exactly what you are doing.
Just because I am moving away doesn't change a damn thing. Unless you do want something to change and I can make that arrangement. Don't be trying to play me as if I am a fool. I am not sucker when it goes to love. Sure you like the girl. I understand. She just being your friend is not cutting it anymore. I sure will end it right now if I have to. Things are gettting out of hand and I can't stand it anymore.
I have dreams now that you and here are in love, but she is too shy to say it in front of me when I know what it really is. You, trying to hide it when I already knew. I've been there and done that with these types of lessons.
First one: Said he love me then liked this one girl. I was cool with this girl and then one day I was not there. DAM....he did it to this girl. Kind of left me there as if I was nothing to him. He was very wrong...
Second one: Had a friend he knew since middle school, said that they were cool and such. I didn't care. I was alright with him. I trusted him. BAM...got tht girl pregro before we even broke up. I was hurt so much.
Do you see why I cannot have anyone I am sure to like around some girl. You have not grown up. You are still that person who is still wild and want to do it with other people. So once you do it with them, you don't hang around them as much?
I am not sure if I can no longer call you a friend. Especially a friend I call with benefits. You show actions in liking this girl. If you want to have your way to her, then go ahead. I do not care anymore. I am gone. I cannot take this anymore.
Even when I touch you, you squint away. But when she touches you, it's all good. I've notice. It's all good because what goes around come right back around. It's called Karma.
Time is ticking and when it stops...who will be the fool then?
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