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AUTUMN!!!! NOOOO!!! You don't cause ME pain!!! or NATE or JACK or TIM or SOPHIE or WOODY!!! you and Carlos get upset with each other because thats what happens in a relationship... it's life... people get mad and make up.. and some people that are being hurt just cant handle change.. You have to make your own decisions and you can't let people run your life.. You being dead or GONE would help nothing!!! we would all be sad! we want you here with us!! and nothing could ever change that!!!

I didn't mean that. I was ******** insane when I said it. You should know that by now. You're choosing the wrong things to truly take heart. All the I love you's and You're so greats don't matter to you, and coming from me they should. You know why I say this? Because so many others would have dropped and ran if they had been put in the situation we're in. But I'm still here. Telling you how ******** amazing you are and how much I love you. Don't give up. Change something. Even if it's telling me to ******** off to hopefully make you happy, do it. Just do something. You're static, unchanging, and life is getting you down. But I can't save you if you don't want me to. Please, think about it. Don't say you're not going to do it for other people, that's them being selfish on their part- stay here for yourself. Stay here so that you can let people make you happy. I love you. And I'm here for you. And I'm not delusional enough to think that my words have affected your mindset at all. I'm not pleading, I'm holding out my arms to you and beckoning you in. I'm trying to cushion your fall. But I know it's all ultimately your choice.