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Here I am, writing away again. A bit more news this time. My dad's liver got smaller. That is a good thing. It means the kemo is working. Huzzah for modern medicine!

Also, I have a preformance today. I get to do a quick scene with my partner. It's part of the acting class thing. It's very unqiue. We got to pick a short dialog, then make the scene around it. We're kittens arguing in a litter box. I'm the bossy older kitten. I play it fairly well. I have little brothers whom I am used to bossing around. So I just use my bullying tone of voice.

I'm getting really excited about tomorrow. G-chan will becoming over to my house. We're going to hit the arcade at the local mall near by. We're going to play DDR Supernova. I'm also going to PWN the claw grabbing machines and lavish G-chan with stuffed animals. G-chan's room has a medium sized mountain of stuffed animals that I've given as presents. We're also going to get stuff for my mom's birthday. My mom's birthday is Saturday. However, G-chan and I will give her the presents tomorrow (We're going to fix her watches and buy her flowers). G-chan has a big test coming up, so G-chan wants some time to study. I'm even more excited about the weekend of the 14th. Monday is a holiday, so I get 5 days of one-on-one time with G-chan. We're also going to go see A Midsummer Nights Dream. It's showing on the 15th. I need to review two plays for my acting class.

My computer will not be coming in on friday. Apparently the way I ordered it caused it be in production until the 26th. Oh well. That gives me time to get the home internet fixed. It died yesterday evening. Luckily, school has lots of free, fast, up to date computers to use. I'm on one right now.

Ah, here is a glimpse into Div's personal beliefs. I believe in taking everyone at face value. They don't have to earn my trust. It's just given. However, I have the mentality of 'Innocent until proven guilty.' Once a person is proven to be guilty then they are given one chance to redeem themselves. This isn't an annouced thing. It's a quiet kind of nudge. If they break that chance then they're put in a mental jail of sorts. I'll isolate them from the pack of friends. Depending on the 'crime' depends on how I continue to treat them. I'm a fairly decent person, I just won't go about guilt tripping people. Yet, it still puts them at a disadvantage. I won't trust them anymore. I won't ignore them persay, but I won't give unconditional support, care, and understanding. If the person continues to repeat their "crimes" then I get steady more annoyed and change how I treat them further.

There a few things that really annoy me and put people into the guilty category quickly. Theft. I can't stand people who steal from me. Emotion blackmail, extoration, and manipulation. I hate people who ******** with others emotions for their own benefit. Cheating. I can't stand cheaters. I work hard for the things I earn, and loathe people who cut corners to get there. I also can't tolerate liers. I've been a pathological lier before. However, my parents decided that this was a life crippling habit, so they put me through therapy. It took a year of constant work with my therapist, my family, and my teachers to cure me of the habit. As far as I can tell, pathological liers usually have some sort of emotional trama that triggers the falsehoods. It's a form of escape and helps them keep some sort of sanity. This doesn't make them any more tolerable though. Whiners. I can't stand people who whine, complain and b***h about small things. Yes, it's ok to not like something and state it, but a continuous stream of it is annoying. Drama. I can't stand drama. Avoiding drama, however, isn't easy. The best methods I've found is to not create it. Another method is to stay away from drama creating centers. Drama gets nasty when you drag others into it. You can have drama in your life, most people call it 'stress'.

Having the occasional rant to or with a friend to remove the emotional burden is healthy. Dragging everyone into your drama is not. Telling people all the time what's wrong in your life is nasty form of drama. Gossip is the fuel of drama. People warp what you say into things of different meaning and make it worse. You can create drama by gossiping, bullying, and mostly just acting negatively in life all the time. Proclaiming your woes to world to get attention for your own benefit is also another form of drama. What I have is stress drama. My life is a rollercoaster because there are a lot of negative things in it that I can't control. What I can control is how I react to this drama. I read, write, exercise, eat regulary, hang out with friends, do small donation to friends, talk with a select few in private to relieve the burden, and take my meds. Fight drama by being positive. I will not drag my personal woes through other people's lives, threads, and other ways to make myself feel better. Well, I think I've ranted enough on this subject. I'm going to head out and practice my lines some more.