Crying out
I am all alone in a dark room I hear many things But they are not what I want to hear It's driving me crazy I'm hurting I'm dying Will someone please hear me? I need someone Who will understand my pain I keep thinking of you And how you died I don't know how I feel anymore I'm enraged, confused, lonely I cry out, but no one hears me I'm crying out for help Nobody listens Nobody cares Alone in a room so dark And it frightens me Wish I could just wash all the pain away But I can't, I can't Need someone here To help with my fears Help me with my mind I hear them They call out to me But I just ignore them Make them go away! Forever calling, forever crawling Forever dying, forever crying Seeking all the answers I find nothing I see nothing I still hear them They won't leave me alone Someone help me please? Someone please hear me! Sitting all alone Still wondering Still trying To make it through I can't stop thinking about you Why must you haunt me? Yes I still love you But why did you let them do this to you? I wish you were still here To ease my pain To make things right again Since you have gone Things have not been the same I miss you I need you Here with me again But nothing can change What has passed I try to let go of the past But I can't let it go It always comes back to haunt me The dark room I sit in Is the only comfort I have And that's not much at all Please tell me you feel my pain? This pain has always been It won't let me go In a darkened room With no light Is the only way I can try to forget All that ever happened I am forever crying out Forever falling Forever dying Forever crawling My soul inside is bleeding Forever bleeding My cries are never heard I have been forgotten I have been lost Forever crying out But still no one hears me I am forever lost Forever
I wrote this poem after my Nana Jenny died. I had some issues going on in my life.
Fallen (Watching Over Us)
Torn apart by this We have been hit with the worst tragedy of all A soul who was dearly loved and respected at the highest level has fallen before our eyes with no way of telling how it could have happened we are shocked by the news of this that has hit our hearts and made the strong ones break down It was just too soon too sudden for this to happen we are left with only one question lingering in our minds Why? Why did this happen? We should all remember That he may be gone but he is not forgotten he is up in the heavens above watching over us smiling down on us as he watches over us he shall be kept in our hearts Where he will never be forgotten He was a friend, crewmate, and hard worker who always greeted you with a warm welcoming smile everyday Even if you had a bad day he would always find a way to make you smile He devoted his heart to the work put before him Everybody here loved him like a brother I know I did We will all miss him dearly May the gods keep him safe in the heavens above Mike, you may be gone, but we shall never forget you Rest in peace.
This poem was written for my friend Michael Gresham who had died in the backcountry program while he was still a corpsmember with me. I wrote it while I was on spike with my crew.
My Wounds
Time after time Years pass by And still I cannot see What is hurting me I have been searching Deep within my soul And have found no answer Even though it was long forgotten After all this time I take some time To review my life My wounds deepen As time slips further from My grasp I am trying to remember What my soul purpose is Have I been lost all this time? Have I been too blind to see What is going on around me? I want to know the answer I want to know where it lies I cannot give into the pain That has been calling my name It craves for me to taste it But I will not For I have heard That the taste of pain Does not taste pleasant I will not give into this pain Which calls my name It shall not have me My wounds deepen As time slips further from My grasp I am trying to remember What my soul purpose is Have I been lost all this time? Have I been too blind to see What is going on around me? I want to know the answer I want to know where it lies I cannot give into the pain That has been calling my name Why must this be? What is happening to me? My mind is slipping away My time is fading fast Hide me away Til the chaos is gone! I feel like I am slipping farther and farther away From you Don't ever let me go I don't want to lose you You mean so much to me I'm fading to black Save me My wounds deepen As time slips further from My grasp I am trying to remember What my soul purpose is Have I been lost all this time? Have I been too blind to see What is going on around me? I want to know the answer I want to know where it lies I cannot give into the pain That calls my name I'm losing this fight I'm soon to fade Soon to die And be forever forgotten Like most memories In the wind Like a bird shot down I will be gone Left in my own cell To rot away My sanity gone My sense of feeling gone The pain begins to close in on me And swallow me up How long must I endeavor this? How much time have I left? Is it enough to say goodbye Goodbye cruel world I leave you now Goodbye my love I will remember you Always I love you.
I wrote this song because it was inspired by Evanescence, it's basically about all the pain i have been through in my life.
LadySapheira · Fri Feb 23, 2007 @ 10:41pm · 1 Comments |