♥ *sigh* ♥ Ever since I accepted the job as Vice Capt of the APG... I hoped for better things
And in having that authority, I thought I could make that happen I try so hard to create new topics, contests, events that'll please the masses But when I constantly get asked questions about my contest (after trying to make them crystal clear) or when no one replies to my contests the right way, or no one bothers with the topics all together... I feel that no one cares about it.
I mean, I know everyone can't be active. People have lives, school, jobs, parents to deal with. I got a 3yr old to take care of daily, housework, and a job so I know. But I still make time for the guild. I promised myself to stop being addicted to the internet, and I sometimes break that promise. Am I too dedicated or is it an addiction?
Now I wanted to start an RP, but not many have replied as I thought they would... so I might just forget the idea. I've had to ban more members in a year than I remember seeing banned the day I became a mod. We get almost 1 new member a day... but where do they go after the invite? P. Skittles told me on YIM that I do so much for the guild and she's happy that I give it so much love, since it's harder for her too. But I wonder... is she and our crew the only people who notice?
I don't want the attention! Lord no! I'm not an attention whore! I just want us to all come together like we were before. Like when I first joined the guild. I want us to have that closeness back. Only a few of us remember what it's like, only a few of us care for guild attention and not personal attention. Only a few of us come on atleast 1 hour a day just to see it active and progressing.
Am I thinking too much of this?
Kira Kira~sama · Thu Dec 14, 2006 @ 02:25am · 1 Comments |