((Me. Taking on the traits of others frequently in mere observation. Lately, I seem to have already lost track of myself. But I'm so sure that I'm still myself in every single way. I am feline, and hyperactive when around those I am familiar with. In my mind I sence no difference at all. Then again, what makes us the way we are? What molds our personalities? Our parents? A variable, of course. Perhaps we are strung from our experiences. My fear of people, my felineness, they appear to be connected to my past encounters of traitors and the ones who relieved my pain.
But a recent influence has been my boyfriend, Rikki. I have been picking up his traits quickly, and it's becoming noticable. I guess it's only natural for me to act like someone I admire, but in my mind, I still feel like the same person. I can tell because I'm still a dreamer. If I was losing myself, my ability to dream would diminish, and my art(which is pretty much the only way I can study myself) is only flourishing, though obsessing on Koijo n Echoe. sweatdrop My mind goes into a dream state so often, I know I'm still me.
Oh! And I also remember something about someone mentioning that they don't have a conscience. I'm not a quick thinker, but a while ago, I noticed that I can prove they do. You see, they aren't controlled by their desires. The conscience, or ego, is what keeps the devil side(id) in check. 3nodding
And that's it for my rant. heart I forgot what I was talking about.))
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