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<center> How long will it last? How long before that empty feeling fades away? I try to go about my daily routine, try not to think about it too much.
But it keeps coming back, sweeping over me like a wave - that feeling in the pit of my stomach - I suck in a big breath of air. How long am I going to feel this way...?
Will it ever stop?
No.
Never.
Not until that beautiful young Elf can see it through my eyes.
In that case, this feeling will last forever. Burning, and freezing, pulling me apart from the inside. My heart aches for her love in return...
I receive nothing but cursing and anger.
Kuro... you don't understand. You may very well never see it like I do. Never comprehend the pain I'm in... Worse then physical... worse than death...
I pray you never come to know this feeling...
This cold, lonely, unloved feeling.
Pirate... Sinder... Sakura...
They all laugh at this. At first, I didn't let their mocking get to me... but day after day after day... constant teasing and scoffing... Soon enough, I found myself even more caught in this web than before.
And they don't stop.
Like... like it's... fun to them...
Do they have any idea what it feels like? To be hurt, and unable to be healed. To search, but never find. To... want... but never have.
I can't take it anymore. I can't stand their insults... why can't they just leave me alone?
It's not funny.
And it hurts.
I can't explain it... The feeling...
Hhhh... what am I doing? ... Wallowing in self pity... I shouldn't be here... I shouldn't be anywhere... no one understands how I feel... and no one cares... I... I think I... just need some rest... a long... rest... </center>
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 PirateElf · Wed Dec 29, 2004 @ 06:56am · 3 Comments |
