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Please help me
Help me find the path I seek
They said they told
"You musn't Go! It's past the deadliest peak"

But I didn't care
I must be there
These wonds are taking the
the best of me.

Half way there
Half way there
before I came to a hault
A ghosty stare, what a stare
and a shivering chill
"You will not get past this hill
for you see it belongs to me.
The mountain named Catastrophe."

A demonic aura
Petrifying face
was trying
just trying to keep me away.

My body in pain
The loud schreeching cry
my confindence is lacking
I--This is suicide.

I should've listened
when the people said no
But clearly I was stubborn
to ever even know--

When suddenly
what appeared before
was a darkness I could probably never forget
Until another chill
but one so good
one so calm
so right,
I woke up from the cold darkness
to a bright angelic light.
Just when I thought things could get worse
this angel came to me and said:

"Do not give up Please trust us
We will guide you through the darkness
to the light at end of the tunnel
regain your confidence and wither away your fears
We will guide you,
to what you call "here"".

Then A faze
I'm back on the track
Glaring at the demon
it staring back
I felt the angels warmth
The angels energy
I felt so light and so free
I could try to defy gravity

"Demon I don't care what you do or say
I'll pass that moutain today my way!"
I ran, I turned, he fired he burned, everything I came close to
he missed, he missed, and boy he was pissed.
I went past a river, traveled up a stream
The demon was gone
or so it seems.
He appeared before me,
evil stare in his eyes.
A stare so cold
You could possibly die
I called for the angels
they said they couldn't help me
fully atleast
This is my inner demon
the only one who can defeat it,

IS ME.

Ever since the second grade
I-I've been afraid....
and my temper was bad
I couldn't behave.
But that wasnt the problem
the problem was
I thought I was living my life as a lost cause
The fear of my teacher
brought this apon me
I wouldn't talk, wound't walk, wound't show the real me
I died inside, I tried to hide.
UNTIL NOW.

"Okay Demon, Now's the time,
for you to vanish and say goodbye. I won't be scared
I will not cry. I will no longer..
I WILL NO LONGER.
Hide!"

The demon let out a schreech
a schreech in pain.
My confindence is back.
It has been regained.
I settled down
and walked the road I seek
without a sense of fear
with peace and serenity
without a demon here
to consume the life of me.

This be dedicated to all my passed away family members.
They helped me find my self in my dreams
and told me to "live life to its fullest. Don't live your life unhappy. Don't let one person ruin your whole life (which would be my second teacher..). I also learned to take it "one day at a time." I miss you all, you were great. I know you are watching over me....and keeping me safe....
With all this said. I can summarize it in a sentence.

If there are obstacles in your life, that may scar you... Learn to forget, move on, and never look back.
Like me. ^_^