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man why is it whenever i get thinking about being forced to find a job or get into college i start to feel i guess depress. im not one to show feelings and if i ever do its cause i have broken down. i tend to hide my feels alot and half the time im not truely happy, im just faking it and not showing my emotions.
o.0 i still have no clue why i bother to write this but am i and i know i being a stupid idiot. i feel alot at times depressed and stressed over having to find a job and get into college most likey because i feel im stupid. i dont know why but i do. maybe its cause i feel i dont even know myself at times and that i dont know what in the hell i wanna do with my life.
most of the time i feel like my life is a waste cause i sit and choose to rot at home and do nothing about it . i been this way for too long and i think i need to try and change things with how they are....... i dont know how im going to but i guess i can try.
oh and i know what most of you will say...... you most likey will say im not stupid, that im being childish and need to just get off my a** and get what i need done, done.
.__. i dont know why i both with writing this but i did and yeah dont bother to comment, unless you truely have somethign to say or feel like it i guess
*edit* and because i can and mei's comment to me was given over aim cuase she wrote too much xD ahhahha i'm addign it here but also = i kind of gonna make it hard to read
I know you're a human and we're all stressed or depressed at least one time at one point in our lives... but to be totally honest, this entry kinda scared me owo;
Okies, here we go... to make this a meaningful comment. I don't think I can say I've been in your situation, but I can relate. I remember making this super-long entry in LJ whining about how I'm so lazy yet I want to achieve so much more... I realized that's my own fault, that I can only move up if I worked my way up there, myself. I can't depend on others. Yes, I am saying if you want to make something out of life, get off your butt. Even though you can't expect to become the next Einstein overnight, you can, however, progress little by little. Progress = slowly moving up. Slowly moving is better than standing at one same point your whole life... at least in my opinion.
Though, you still haven't seen your 20th year of life. You still have time, because some people don't go into college directly after highschool... but it's best to start working on your life now. On the other hand, they say some of the wisest people didn't attend school, and that you learn something new each day. I... er, dunno. If you'd like to start with a job for now, don't go apply for any job that's available. I suggest you start looking at stores or places you like. It doesn't have to pay $25 an hour, either. Again, you're just starting off. $7 an hour is good for a beginner because only yesterday, you received $0 an hour. And apply for hours you're comfortable with.
Another thing! You! STOP PUTTING YOURSELF DOWN. *kicks your ego upwards* I do not think you're stupid (yes, I'm saying this too! sue me.) I admit you can be a bit slow at times, I am too, but you can still achieve. Only you can do that, though. Prove yourself wrong, Sammy!
One last thing... I truly think you're writing this because you want to talk to someone. But you never talk to me on AIM~ cause you're always insisting me to start the conversation! I'll always be here to listen to you, after you've listened to all of mine. Rar, do I need to pry all of this out of you?! Sheesh, if this keeps up, I WILL!
 samus x · Sat Apr 15, 2006 @ 09:59am · 4 Comments |
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