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Kurai looks up at Jess and holds his stomach. " Uh..I'm not going to be in gym today Jess.."
Jess looks at him, frowning slightly. "Why not? Are you not feeling well?" She asks as she looks down at his hands.
Kurai shakes his head. " No, my stomach is being irretated."
Jess puts one hand on his shoulder, looking concerned. "Was it something you ate? Are you ill?"
Kurai would've moved away but he doesn't feel much like moving. " I think it was something I-" He began before running to the bathroom. He returned moments later with a groan. " I hate being sick."
Jess softly pats his back. "Can I get you anything?"
Kurai groans softly." No..I think its food poisoning. I've been puking for three days now."
Jess nods slowly. "I see... Have you been to a doctor yet?"
Kurai walks over to the couch and curls into a ball. " No.. I hate hospitals."
Jess thinks for a moment. "I think I understand why, but... If it's been going on for three days, it could be something worse than food poisoning."
Kurai blinks." Worse? I don't know what else it could be though. Aside from my stomach being easily agitated, I'm doing fine."
Jess shrugs. "Well, it could be..." A thought pops up in her head, but she immediately dismisses it. That's not possible, is it? "I don't know, but the nausea isn't supposed to last for more than 2 days."
Kurai smiles lightly." Say that to my stomach.." He frowns. " It could be what? It could be that I just got the flu or something."
Jess chuckles at his comment before turning serious again. "Yeah, yeah it could just be the flu..." She pauses, thinking back to that one option. "Look, I'm not a doctor, but if it gets worse, you should totally go see one."
Kurai shudders. " I can't. I hate the hospitals.. I have to see a specialist and he overcharges for each visit. Everytime I'm there I feel like some object on display.."
Jess frowns. "Really? That is so unprofessional!" She sits down next to him. "But you can't just not go... What if it's something that won't just go away on its own?"
Kurai is starting to be freaked out. " Yes. Yes I can. I can't go ...what could it possibly be? Flu, virus...?"
Jess hesitates. "I don't know, I just had a thought... It's silly." She chuckles, trying to laugh it off.
Kurai looks over at her. " I should be prepared for everything right? And its probably no sillier than the bird flu and such."
Jess quickly nods at his words. "Yeah, it's probably something like that." She smiles at him, trying not to let it show that she was thinking of something completely different. "I just worry too much."
Kurai couldn't help wondering what she meant. " ...you should still tell me.." He said. Why did she look so uncomfortable?
Jess bites her lower lip nervously. "I don't know... The whole being nauseous all the time..." She looks away. "It just immediately made me think of a pregnancy." She hesitantly turns back to look at him and shrugs. "But it's not even possible, right? So just forget I said anything." Is it possible?
Kurai raised an eyebrow as she began and then just sat there. Pregnancy..but he didn't..He remembered the doctor saying something but they never really elaborated on his exams. they mostly just told him if he needed any medicine yadda ya. But, as he thought over, he began to wonder. He sure was puking alot but he could only be pregnant he and niccolo did it a certain number of....... Kurai stared at the floor. " Its possible. Not many cases and fewer were both live but yes..possible." He sat there frozen.
Jess stares at him in shock. "You're... You're kidding, right?" She tries to compose herself, not wanting him to feel like a complete freak. "But you and Niccolo... You used protection, right?" She feels a little uncomfortable talking about it, and can only imagine how he must feel about all this. This is not happening...
Kurai bites his lip at her comment and his face rises with color as she starts talking about him and niccolo. " I..I don't remember..I remember that he went to get it but I'm not sure if he ever.." Kurai curls into the sofa in an attempt to hide.
Jess lets her hand hover over him for a short moment, not really sure how to comfort him. "I'm sure he did." She nods, trying to convince herself. "Like I said, it was just a silly thought... I mean, what are the chances that you're...? They're probably really low."
Kurai shudders and listens to her speak. " 25% chance that I am, 15% that it is a false pregnancy, 30% that I am suffering from some normal illness. The other 30% is for miscellenous and unaccounted for things." He said and sighed. " How do you check? YOu know..without going to the doctor.."
Jess nods slowly as he starts listing the numbers. "See, the chances of it being something else are so high!" She shrugs. "Well, you could always take a pregnancy test? You just have to... pee on a stick, I guess."
Kurai raises an eyebrow. " Would that even work for me? I mean..women have so many hormones and so do guys.. would this work?" he asks finding that Chatzy had provided him with one.
Jess shrugs. "I honestly don't know... But it's worth a shot."
Kurai nods and goes into the bathroom. How the hell were you supposed to use these? He struggled for a moment before finally figuring it out. He washed his hands and waited for it to show an answer. Happy face or sad face.. waiting..waiting..happy face. Kurai stared at it in shock and fell against the wall
Jess gets up after a while, wondering what's taking so long. She gives a short knock on the door, not wanting to just burst in there while he's still... "How's it going in there?"
Kurai stares at the floor. " I'm hallucinating! Give me a minute." He stared at it . Happy. ********. Face. Go away. He didn't want to see that.
Jess Hallucinating? She frowns and puts her hand on the doorknob. "I'm coming in, ok?" She sounds really worried.
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Kurai nodded before realizing the door was closed. " Oh yeah. sure." he said. He didn't move. He just stared at that damn stick.
Jess enters the bathroom and looks at Kurai, noticing that he doesn't look too... happy. "Is everything alright?"
Kurai handed it to her. " I don't know whether to be upset, sad or angry." he said
Jess takes the stick and looks at the happy face. "Oh... Well... It could be a false alarm?" She puts the stick on the edge of the sink. "You usually have to take several to be 100% sure... And even then, it's always best to go to the doctor. These tests aren't the most reliable things.." She's just trying to convince herself that something went wrong. She just can't believe that Kurai is... pregnant.
Kurai just stares at her." You gave me an easily falsifiable test?" He sighs. Not much he could do about it. " Would you mind coming with me?" He asked. " none of my friends know and Niccolo ..well..I don't want to tell him. YOu know how he gets." He said as he left the bathroom.
Jess nods and smiles at him, trying to make him feel more comfortable. "Sure, I'll go with you."
Kurai sat at the doctor office and waited for the exam to begin. The doctor measures the fat content of his breasts and notes size. He feels like an expirement and wouldn't put it past them to encourage his pregnancy. At each question asked he turned away , shifted and muttered a response. The doctor nodded and proceeded to do( some odd testing thing that I don't know about because I'm not a doctor). Kurai looked over at him as the man got silent. " Congrats.." he said quietly and Kurai wanted to strangle him.
Jess sits in the doctor's office, waiting patiently while Kurai's being examined in another room, looking through some information leaflets. When they re-enter, she looks reassuringly at Kurai. The doctor looks at them for a while before congratulating Kurai. Her eyes grow wide in shock. She takes Kurai's hand and gives it a gentle squeeze, letting him know that she's here for him. "Are you sure?" she asks the doctor. This is all just too weird.
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Doctor flips through his notes and looks over at the uh..Kurai and the girl." Yes. There are special procedures for this sort of thing. Now, the only thing we don't know is how well suited he is for it. He does have an uterus and a set of ovaries but his pelvic bone isn't wide enough to birth the child. If you do decide on carrying farther along I need to know now.. We'd have to put you on a strict diet as well as different medication."
Jess glances sideways at Kurai, expecting him to say he's not keeping it.
Doctor asked Chatzy to choose between abort, fail pregnancy and keep. Chatzy chose: keep
Kurai holds her hand and squirms a bit on the table feeling uncomforable as they talk about his private parts. He was felt odd. He was being discussed about like someons pregnant dog. He blinked when the doctor finally turned to address him. "..." He remembered what Niccolo said. He always wanted this and secretly Kurai was curious. But that wouldn't happen. He'd abort but he kept thinking about Niccolo. This little creature/baby was Niccolo's child. He couldn't kill him/her..them? "..I..I'm going to keep it."
Jess turns to look at him shock, not letting go of his hand. "Kurai, are you sure about this? I mean... You'll expose yourself to everyone." She knows that isn't the best reason to get rid of the baby, but it's the only thing she can think of right now. She's too shocked to come up with a better reason.
Kurai is obviously torn. " I know..but I..I can't. If the pregancy falls through then fine..but I won't do that. Not willingly." He wasn't sure what he was thinking. He needed to think but he couldn't. She was right. He'd be exposed in the worst kind of way..he shuddered.
Jess squeezes his hand again. "I know, it's hard." She thinks things through for a moment and then turns to the doctor. "What are the chances of this turning out badly for him?" She doesn't want to scare Kurai even more than he already is right now, but thinks this may make him change his mind... No guy should be having a baby. Right?
Doctor: " Very well then. I'll get going on your mediation. You will notice some swelling in your breasts, thats very normal . However, I recommend that you don't bind them down at this time..just... it damages the tissue. Another thing before you might want to start thinking of-" He frowns and looks down at his chart." 65%. That is not including the chances that something could be wrong with the fetus. Now,excuse me. i'll file this and get your meds for you.
Jess is surprised the chances are so high. "Kurai... I think you should really think this through..."
Kurai stares at them in shock and shakes his head. " There's still a 35% chance that nothing will go wrong.." He said offered a weak smile. "...I don't want to be a murderer Jess.." he said lowering his voice. " Besides, I'm good with numbers..I'll figure something out."
Jess sighs. "I get that, I really do... But you could be killing yourself by going through with this. Do you think that's what Niccolo wants?" She knows it's probably not fair to bring that up right now, but she's genuinely worried about him.
Kurai closed his eyes and bit his lip again. He didn't really think of himself at the moment. Sure there was a lot that could go wrong but did he really have to be responsible for the death of a baby? " I'll be fine Jess, really.." At the last sentance he fought back unnecessary emotions. " I'm not going to kill him Jess, I'll get through.."
Jess tries not to let her emotions get to her. She smiles weakly and nods. "I will help you out wherever I can. I'll help you get through this, together with Niccolo."
Doctor returned with two nurses and looked over at Kurai. " I'm sorry that we have to do this..but this runs too high of a risk for your safety." He said and as Kurai's eyes opened, realization settled in. No..NO! He struggled against them as tears began to form. The doctor held him down as a nurse sedated him. "..the chances for harm were greater than I thought. We can't risk anything.. He'll be back in a moment." He said before taking off. When he returned he silently took his paperwork and left
Jess jumps up from her seat, trying to keep the doctor and the nurses from taking Kurai. "You can't do this to him! It's his decision!" She yelled after them as they left.
( http://us6.chatzy.com/62187891079927 )
Kurai shuddered and convulsed lightly as he cried. They made him a murderer, they killed him. Not only that but they were going to remove his uterus and ovaries to prevent another pregnancy. He was high risk. Kurai hurt but that was nothing compared to mental anguish.
Jess walks over to where Kurai is sitting and squats down, so she was at eye-level with him. She doesn't know what to say, so she just pulls him into a hug, letting him get all his emotions out.
Kurai cries until his eyes burn,and silently screamed until his voice barely worked. He felt limp. Numb. He didn't care.
Jess softly rubs his back as she's still holding him, trying to comfort him, although nothing will probably make him feel better at this point.
 Syn2 · Wed Apr 18, 2012 @ 11:03am · 0 Comments |
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