Yet another depressing Journal.
I managed to survive Graduation and get out, and now with only a month left of vacation I'm still wasting my life. I still can't eat. I still have problems with the guys.
I'm still alone.
I decided to dip into the world of Anon'ing with the daring title of Lord Inglip. It's difficult only because I don't have a lot of gold ._.
I traded away all my big money items, like Ikki, and used what little gold I had prior to this to buy some new outfits... All in blue.
I love the color blue... I've written several poems about it.
I have a knack for poetry. My teacher's told me a few times that I had a talent... But it's hard because I can't keep my head clear, and I have a terrible memory.
I'm extremely stressed out. Going into highschool now... Still having problems with family. My mother likes to scream at me and abuse the title of having me as her daughter. She even used me as an excuse for a fight with the Neighbors next door... But she only fights with them because they're from Korea. It makes me hurt. I can't do anything about it though. I just have to take the pain every day and hope I won't have to come back home the next day... But I always wake up in the same bed.
I fight a losing battle...
I just wish Jackal was around more... Maybe I wouldn't be so lonely. I know Blood's around but he's no longer a Gaian as far as I'm concerned. He likes to ditch me and ignore me every day so he can play his games. I finalyl worked up the nerve to remarry him but he acted like he didn't want to be near me and since then he's constantly gone, leaving me behind to suffer in silence. I try to deal with it. And I've tried to leave him but I can't stand the thought of another woman's hands on him! It drives me insane. So I leave him alone and let him do whatever he wants. I'll say now, going away to SecondLife makes my stomach sick. It hurts and it ails me beyond any kind of reason.
But I try to deal with it.
