It was something like a party in the downstairs half of the house. I went upstairs to get pretzels as snacks. As I got them, I fell on an exercise ball, and couldn't get back up. I had something sort of like a computer with me. Only small. So I IM'ed my friend Shad to help me. For some reason, I really couldn't get up off the ball. She came upstairs in a Spike cosplay. I should have been able to see something different... In her face, in her walk, in her voice. But I didn't. I really did think she was Shad. I had no idea I would be wrong. It was really dark in my room. She laughed a bit, in the way Spike would have laughed. "You really can't get up?" "I really can't." "Why are you even down there?" "I fell." She got really close. "Then why don't I believe you?" "I really did. I fell." I was getting scared at this point. "You know what happens to little girls that lie..." She didn't help me up. Her hand moved downward, and I started to squirm. "Come on, it's all just part of the punishment." You'd think I would have known by now. Shad had never acted this way and I knew she never would. But I still hadn't caught on. Only after she chuckled to herself while I squirmed did I notice. Her laugh was so familiar. I stopped her, and turned to see her face clearly. It was, of course, JJ. There was more laughter, not just hers. Someone else's. Many other people's. A week later she was in the hospital. I can't remember for what. And I can't remember who was on either side, but somebody tried to smother somebody else with a pillow. I have no idea who it was. I think the person being smothered may have been JJ. But I don't know who was attacking her. I remember crying. That kind of crying you do that sounds almost just like screaming when your heart's been broken again by the same person who broke it before. I remember Shad looking betrayed. I remember Alice looking betrayed. Not by JJ. By me.
FN Pixie · Thu Feb 18, 2010 @ 11:28pm · 0 Comments |