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Hey, so yeah, I don't use this very often sweatdrop Just today I thought about writing into this thingie more often - to keep track of my stuff and so on - and just as an outlet for -um- things.
So yeah :XP:
The complete last week we had no school because of the final exams this and next week so we had time to study and prepoare for them.
Again I failed at kicking my a** and work much - instead I procastinated again and kept all the work for the last few days X3
Since I advertised the spriotes in my sig, I got swamped with requests O.O I have 18 waiting right now, I will start work on them next Wednesday (Feb. 15th) when I'm done with ym exams 3nodding So I'm currently "closed" X3 wink
I'll have my Arts Exam tomorrow. My teacher made three exams and the official people will put one of them away, leaving us with a choice of two. I hope that the topics from the 1st and 3rd Semester will be left to choose from - I didn't really like the 2nd Semester topic that much XD. SO either 1st Sem (portrait drawing) or 3rd Sem (oil paintings).
Biology Exam will be on Friday - Gee, A hell of a lot to study for this - but I think I'll do okay 3nodding Genetics, Ecology and Evolution I'm kinda curious on what the tasks will be...
Then I'll have the weekend and Monday left for studying for my Philosophy Exam on Tuesday X3 I'll have to read this book about Immanuel Kant, a firend of mine said that it's really good to understand and explains Kant's ideas very well.
But enough from the unpleasent stuff 3nodding I went to the Elbe (big river running through Hamburg [my city] and ending in the North Sea) with a good friend of mine on the 28th, 4th and 5th and we took 150 photos in total. Wonderful Sunsets and scenery! <3 I'll link a few photos at the end of the entry so you get an impression 3nodding
Yeah I really love living in Rissen. (my town) It's in the very west part of Hamburg, we got alot of green, are close to the Elbe and so on. From my house I go like 20 meters and can take a wolk in a small forest, or go to see cows, sheep and horses (when they are outside - it's a bit too cold now) Allso there's not much traffic. And still I can get to the inner city in ~30 minutes with the railway to go shopping or to a party and so on. There's allso a big mall that I can reach in ~25 minutes by bike and 10-15 by car (depends on the traffic)
I uploaded another map, maybe it gives you an idea^^
So I can go down to the Elbe to the beach (the last 2 or 3 weeks there was ice and so on, looked cool) or in the other direction for the Kl�vensteen (forest, a small animal park, more agricultural landscape, perfect for walks/bikerides on a nice day) ^-^
I can't wait for spring or better wheather (it's rainy atm) so I can ride my bike there again. I love enjoying the environment in my town.
well, I guess that's quite some stuff about my place for now^^
Just on a random note: Ole von Beust, Hamburg's mayor, is gay 4laugh xd mrgreen [so are Mr. Roger Kusch, Minister of Justice in Hamburg, Klaus Wovereit, mayor of Berlin and Guido Westerwelle, Head of the Liberal Party(FDP) ^^]
I experienced moodswings and down-phases (normally occuring in the evenings) for a while now - Actually I think I was just tired sweatdrop
But the frequency and intensity increased since, I think 3 months ago. Slowly, but it increased. Sometimes I even feel depressed o.o This normally happens when I'm alone (meaning noone else in the room) and not occupied by sth that requires my brain (e.g. puzzles, other games, writing) or other stuff like tidying up and so on. So, basically, when I'm just not doing much X3
Like last week, when I went to the kids sports group on Friday again. I am doin this together with a young woman - we set up cool stuff with the things that are available in the Primary School's Gym. Teh kids are aged 5-7, I love this job.
Well, back to topic, she was late that Friday and I was alone in the gym and sat there, waiting for her. That was one of those situation where my mind wanders and gets to scary places. And I imagine myself dying or getting heavily injured, trying to imagine how my friends and family would react to it and what it would feel like at all. Later that day when I had gone to bed I dreamed about this stuff, too. I saved a friend of mine, whom I have a crush on currently redface , from various life-threatening situations and either got killed or badly hurt and loosing conciousness in his arms o.o And the list goes on.
I'm kinda scared of myself lately, because I don't want these thoughts and day dreams to become stronger. Well, I think I'm strong enough to not do any harm against myself but I'm still a little scared..
I first talked to Vinnie about it over MSN. He was of great help and it felt good to have talked about it. I chatted with him very much since then and whenever I had those dreams I told him about it and felt better. I don't know if you know how much you helped me, Vinnie!! heart
Which is one of the reasons why it made me very sad to hear that we won't be able to talk for a while now crying
Vinnie thinks that stress might be a reason for my slight depressions and their becoming stronger. Well, I'll see how it goes on after these important exams are over. I hope it gets better then, I don't want to have these dreams ._.
Well, I think I'll finish this entry now. Oh, yeah, I promised some photos:
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 Nils-san · Tue Feb 07, 2006 @ 09:07pm · 3 Comments |
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