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Mood: Depressed
Listening to: "I Miss You" by Jamestown Story
It's been like this for a long time now. I should be used to it by now, but I'm not.
I live in New York. And where I live, it isn't exactly a safe place. There are really bad drivers. My mom keeps almost getting hit by cars. People pick a fight with people for no reason. I got beat up a couple of times, even though I didn't know them. The list goes on.
I'm nineteen years old, and my mom won't let me go anywhere alone. I always have to be with my mom or my brother. Because of this, I have limited freedom. My mom has a job. So when she comes home, she wants to relax and not do anything. Ever since me and my brother got our own computers, he's been on it all day. He's become so lazy, he doesn't want to do anything. And because he doesn't want to do anything, I can't go anywhere. I'm stuck in the house all day.
My mom says that she doesn't want me to go anywhere alone because it isn't safe. But if I ask to just hang out with my friend, she won't let me unless I bring my brother along.
My brother doesn't get along with my friend, but I have to bring him anyway. I'm trying to be nice by not taking my brother every time I hang out with my friend. But since I do that to try and make my brother happy, I rarely get to see my friend. It's like we're not even friends anymore. I don't have anyone else.
Even though I'm nineteen, I live with my mom. So I have to follow her rules. I wish I was rebellious. It would be easier for me to break the rules and just go wherever I want to without bringing my brother with me. She won't even let me go out back when she's at work. We have to stay in the house until she gets home from work. She gets home from work at about.. 3pm.
She is so overprotective, it's ruining my life. I don't even feel like I'm nineteen. I feel like I'm some twelve year old little girl.
Yes. We do go out places, but we usually just go out shopping and come right back home. My brother doesn't want to hang out anywhere because his friends are waiting online for him.
The thing is.. I'm adventurous. I love being active and having things to do. I like to be crazy and have excitement in my life. I am a Sagittarius after all. If you believe in that kind of stuff, you'll know where I'm coming from.
What should I do? I've talked to my mom plenty of times about it, but she still won't let me go anywhere alone. Not even to the library, which is only a few blocks away! Not even one ********' block.
I don't want to rush anything such as moving into a friend's place. But I need to be able to live my life and experience things for myself.
I'm still in school, so I can't get a job yet. The reason that I am still in school is because just recently she got us doing Penn Foster. At first, we were doing some other homeschooling. But when she found out that doing Penn Foster will be quicker and I will get my Highschool Diploma after it, she decided to make us do that. So I have two more years to get it done. I don't want to have to wait two years to be able to get out there. Y'know?
It's become too much for me. I can't take it anymore.
If you have any advice, please let me know..
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