well to be perfectly honest i woke up today with the distinct feeling that it was a tuesday and still carry that feeling with me despite the fact that i went through the usual friday drag.
mandel was absent again today (painting in New Mexico) so Ms. Covvarubio was free to give us hell about the importance of resumes a task that always feeling more at touch with emptiness then anything.
i mean this entirely not in the way of depression but rather the wonderful thing that creates, destroys, and amazes everything in the world from time to time. i love it so very much at times though when looking on paper and seeing that i am not anything just happens to be bittersweet.
anyways in english we are being forced to write a paper on the gothic writing style, somthing the teacher always makes it a point to pronounciate while looking at me for some reason. i may be grouchy and a sadist from time to time but i am fat, i wear no makeup/scent, my hair is blue, and i wear jeans so i really can't see how anyone could think me gothic for. eek
math was the normal blah.
physics was nothing special.
we finished watching animal farm in economy which was just amazing though i must admit i nearly cried when i saw them take the horse away (betrayls always bring me to the brink of tears) and nearly broke into laughter when squellar fell from the ladder after editing the sign. you could tell just by watching it that '1984' was written by the same author (George Orwell) who i do think may slowly be becoming an author of interest in my head. it really is depressing that he died at such a young age.
which reminds me i have to present two books for class on monday. hopefully i don't choke somthing that occurs from time to time when my loud mouth becomes the absolute center of attention. sweatdrop
i though i saw Jensen this morning before school but as you can imagine (if you knew my school atleast) he blends in pretty well so i wasn't sure if it was him and didn't say hi. maybe this is one of the reasons people seem to dislike me?
it was rather easy to get the robotics guy off my back it turns out. all i had to do was insist that the work was going to get done and he went from glaring at me to saying that he liked me which made me blush despite myself because i have a terrible way of accepting compliments that being passing of people as bullshitting or getting very stuttery and nervous.
i really wanted to play for some reason today. not sexually or anything just run around in circles and maybe play a little tag which is rediculous way for a lazy 17 year old like me to behave but is still what i was in any case. they said that i'd grow out of it but i think that it just grew into me. so it is.
i want to talk to matt but knowing him he will be off somewhere on friday and it is better socially for me simply to wait till my only pretty much guarented time to speak with him that being sunday afternoon.
i think that i will be going to a radio contest next saturday.
we have pizza. i better go i want to eat a slice.
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