What you see here is a form of symbolizing my inner suffering and depression.
The silver lamp tells you that i wish i could change what happened to make things right again.
The red and black colors mean i hate the way things are now.
The death symbol and my face mean i wish i could just die.
The swirls around the hat represent all the thoughts of regret going through my mind.
And the chaos going on behind me is what just happened to us, and the effects it had on me over the past few days.
I have no wish to make you do something you no longer want to do.
I don't care if you do not love me any longer.
I just feel so much self-hatred towards myself right now for screwing up all of my happiness, and my life with you.
I love you....
and I always will.
Even if you never even read this, i feel like i need to get my message across on how much you truly mean to me, how you make my life worth living, and how much it brings me to tears to think that i can never be with you again.
I'm sorry for everything......
 Sporadic Function · Mon Sep 21, 2009 @ 08:46pm · 1 Comments |
