Well, Journal
Apparently when I have insomnia, i tend to think about life and how it has tormented me, and then putting my thoughts in you, even though i know it's useless... and it seems like i'm a douche bag wanting attention by posting this. But anyway... today i will be complaining about the good times in the not so distant past and how life has beat the s**t out of me with it... let's begin where my life actually rocked
Oh yeah, fun times Florida was... being raised there... having the greatest friends.... experiencing first love....
Then life just likes to ruin my ******** fun! moving away was the beginning of what is now me, right now.
She said she still liked me, she said we were too young.. BULLSHIT.... 3 months later you go ahead and get a new bf....
During the 3 years of MS... I made new friends... and things got better.Then I find out my friends back in FL were drifting away... and also i find out I'M MOVING AGAIN!!! WTF!!!???
During this move I adjusted to a new culture... And right when I finally adjusted I FIND OUT I'M MOVING AGAIN!!! BULLSHIT!!!
The friends I lost in my ******** 14 years of life!!!
So... b4 i moved to Tex.... i had to live in MS for a school semester.
But that summer... i thought it was the best thing for me...
That summer.... i met her... All the fun chats we had.... i never wanted it to end...
But let me get back to that later...
So during that semester... i made a whole lot of new friends... but unfortunately i had to say goodbye to all of them soo soon.... ******** this world....
In Tex i made new friends, too... I was happy for a while...
From the start of the New Year... me and her... we sorta drifted apart.... And as summer began... i thought we could catch up a bit... I was wrong.... Thoughts in my head came about long distance relationships and that we never actually do see each other until after my graduation... So... I ended the relationship.... I sacrificed my happiness for hers...
Then a few weeks later.... i discovered... she found someone new.... and that...she loved him.....
That's what sent me hell.... that's what made me this now...
People are my happiness but I've lost soo many relationships.... that i barely have hope for a good life.... I wanna feel happiness again... but will i ever find it?
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