Alright, I ended up home sick yesterday. Again. Piss me off. I had an eye doctor appointment though at 4:30pm, so I went to that. On the way we saw an accident, which is why our power had blinked. Well, coming back we saw two more. Had to make a detour for one. I decided that this was the night for accidents. Well, we turned onto my road, and when I saw that the solitary street lamp was out, I'm like "Uh oh..." sure as hell, we had no power.
Well, Miyu had a rec night to go to, and Dad needed to get more gas incase the generator was low, since it wasn't working to its full potential. So Ethan went with Dad and they left me home alone. ALONE!!! WITH A FAULTY GENERATOR!!! I was on the phone with Duo... until the generator dipped so bad that it cut out, and at that same time the fiberoptics for the phones went dead too. So now I was stuck with no way of contacting ANYONE should something happen. You want to talk about scared, I almost vomited I was so scared. Here's what I wrote in my personal diary journal thing while trying to keep calm:
I'm alone, and I'm scared. The power's out due to accidents, but Dad turned the generator on. He had to go get gas though, and bring Miyu to RecNight, and Ethan went with him. Mom's at work, and the generator keeps kicking, so the phones are basically useless, not to mention out of service. I'd call mom and have her come home if they weren't though. I was talking to Duo, but alas, I can talk no longer. I don't know why the generator won't work, I only have two lights, a scanner, and clinking clocks on. Nothing else. My pupils are ******** dialated from my eye appointment, and I still have two hours to go. I'm not sure why it is that I'm able to write, just lucky I guess. I think I'm going to be sick. This whole ordeal is upsetting my IBS. It's not like I can read to calm myself either. I think I'm gonna cry. I feel so helpless and vulnerable. I don't want to be alone! This reminds me of the time we were in school, and in the computer lab, and the power went out. The computer lab has no windows, so it was pitch black, save the window in the door. The teachers told us that if we were scared to take the hand of the person next to us. Well, I was, and I guess I wimpered or something, but Seth offered me his hand and some encouraging words. To this day that is the only time I ever remember Seth being nice to me. I'll always be grateful. OMG! It just about died. I'm trembling. It did it again. Oh! Kami please, anyone, JUST HELP ME! I'm so scared... so terribly scared... Oh! Thank the Kami, someone's home. I hear car doors. It's Ethan and Dad! I have never been happier to see them in my life! Dad's going to fix the generator now. I never want to do that ever again. Never ever. Those were the scarriest 30 minutes of my ******** life. When the phone died on Duo and me in the kitchen I actually dd sink to my knees and cry. I love candles, poweroutages, ect... I just don't want to be alone like that.
So yea... it was not a pretty time for the me.
Later that night, I had a very long talk with my mom about everything. We were up until 4am chatting. She's given me permission to walk out of class 2nd period- Health, should the ridicule not stop. And, I may have found a way to do Spanish independently, so that I can free up a bit of my school schedual. See, I want to learn it on my own with some Euro Talk Cds, and then just report in to Senora Peters on like a weekly basis, and do it that way. I definately learn languages better in a non-school atmosphere. I'm going to talk with Ms. Morck about it Monday. She's my guidance counselor. ^_^
Well, it's time for me to jet. See ya!
Quoted from Duo: "You have to stop being so sick love, it's bad for your health!" LMAO!!!
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