i cant stand not talking to him, i love him so much. but on top of the whole freedom loss thing, i keep thinking of the last time he proposed to me. i never actually got a ring, and he bailed on me. it broke my heart more than anything else could. i felt like i had died inside, like my heart had just shriviled up to nothing. im tired of crying, so very tired of being barely there. i wish i could marry him, if he would just listen to me, and let me have my freedom, so that i could still have my wolves, and promise to never back out on my agian, and actually get me a ring this time, i would. but he wont...and once agian i end up crying, wishing for what can never be. at least my wolves will never abandon me and leave me crying my eyes out and feeling dead inside.
theshadowolf · Tue Apr 28, 2009 @ 04:10am · 0 Comments |