I don't know what is over me. I feel as if master's dead. I want to die. Maybe I should call him tonight or tomorrow and talk to him. It hurts me a lot. Like just he isn't there. Maybe its the dreams of him dieing. I didn't want to tell him this morning but the dream was worse than the nights before. I would do anything to not have him ever leave me. I know that if he was sertuin that he would never leave me again but I know that wouldnt matter because his mom. Its the worst fear I have, losing him and yet I stay on the edge everyday because for some odd reason, I Love Him. I'll do it the rest of my life if he wishes. I ******** up so badly and I will never let myself forget that, for the day he found out was marked with much blood and many trears.
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