I don't know how to start this,since I'm kinda ashame of what I did,but I had reasons.it's not like I did it for fun like some people or because I was curios ,I wasn't,what exactly did I do? I drank alcohol last night,I usually know my limits but this time I got drunk before I noticed.
I can see why people get drunk when they have so much on they're minds,I wasn't aware that I was drinking the stuff until I tried going to the bathroom and couldn't walk straight......I was laughting so much too.....I guess in a way thats a good thing because now I know that I'm not a violent person when I'm like that.
not much I can say,just that I wish I hadn't done it,I hate myself abit more just cause I let them talk me into drinking it,I hate myself more because I actually did and I did nothing to stand up for myself.
in the end I guess I did it because I was afraid,not of them but of myself,my thoughts ,my "what if" that had been haunting me.
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 yamiruri · Sun Nov 06, 2005 @ 12:27am · 1 Comments |
