This is not because I am not over it, it is because I cannot forget. And the fact that some one pushed my buttons; oppening this long forgotten hole to bring back the bitterness that was locked away is just... It's just necessary to revent about it and thus the perpous of this journal entry.
It starts from the 6th grade. I transfered into a new school and then I became best friends with my greeter. Her name is Katrina. This all takes place about 5 years ago. But once highschool came, things changed. It wasn't for the worst. I thought so at first. But that is where the old saying "A blessing in disquise" comes in.
For one thing, Katrina's true colors started to show itself to me. Not the elegant light of purity. Her color was adulterated; turned impure with lies and jealousy. Lies of suicide and friendship she desperately wanted that she pretended her life for who knows how long. She claimed I was her guardian angel, but really, I as just a tool to get the friendship she wanted. And to top it off, she was jealous of me. Not just of the perfect life with a loving family, but I also had a boyfriend in the 6th grade. His name was Nick. [and I realize later that he was a freak...]
In the 7th grade, him and I split because he was a little too obsessive. And because he would talk to Katrina more than me; which lead to them both dating later on. At first, I didn't see anything to it, but now, I know that he was only talking to her more because he was trying to prevent her from overdosing like she said she would. Apparently, she said all that stuff to him just to get him away from me and give her the attention she craved for. [word for this: ATTENTION WHORE] By the time I didn't care [and she noticed this] she dumped him just as I did.
8th grade rolled on and Katrina was still telling Nick of her suicidal thoughts. But it wasn't just him she was talking to. She was telling me her suicidal thoughts too. She even said one time "Oh my scars on my wrists are showing." I didn't see any when I looked, but I belived her anyways because you can't take suicide as a joke and she was my best friend at the time. It was during this year when she started telling me her stories of her parents and how they hated me [which might be true.] and how they wanted her to be perfect and how they treasured her older brother Logan more and yadi-yada. She even went on how her other close friend Celina and I were her only true family. Which I now know that is a lie.
Freshman year in highschool, Katrina's mother decides to yank her and Logan out of the highschool and into the Christian School. Then she starts talking to me on Gaia about her suicidal thoughts and how it's because she can't see me and how the reason why her parents made her transfer was because of me. My mom jumps in and talks to her, trying to calm her down. She takes it the wrong way and says we can't be friends anymore. About a week passes and she messages me telling me that we could be friends as long as I meet the requirements her mother might have set. A few I can remember was to not be hyper all the time and to be like everybody else and to be a Christian. And I mean FULL ON Christian. Like go-to-church and read-the-bible-every-day kind of Christian.
The hyper thing is beyond my control because I am ADHD and I'm hyper anyways. I know there is medicine for that, but I don't need medicine. D: It's pointless. >:U I felt like they were ENCOURAGING my bad behavior in the 3rd grade which was the year I was taken off of them. She said that it was immature and how can she dare call me that when later on she makes a profile with a user is "Killer of Kiwi ish Ae" [one of my previous users on Kiwi is my Name] and on the profile has my avatar covered in red splatters with her avatar screaming "DIE" and claims that I am "The Destroyer of Souls". Do you find that immature about this situation?! Plus topping off faking a Gaia boyfriend using her mules just because I was dating Atomsk-Sama at the time [I still call him Chase-kun] and she was jealous. -rolls eyes- Seriously.
The be-like-everyone-else thing is rather... Stupid. Who wants to be a sheep following the heard where ever it goes? Cirtanly not me.
And finally the one thing that really pissed me off. Being told to be a Christain. I'm fine with what you beleive, but I don't believe in being told what my faith should be and shoving other peoples faith down my throat. And just following one religion JUST to be friends with some one is pure bullshit; Just like her. And that is where I draw the line.
Later she starts preaching to all of my friends and Lilly. She sends all kinds of bible s**t to Nick; who told me this one afternoon during an after school study group trying to make up work in science class. He even told me he had to make a new yahoo e-mail account just to escape her. Even I had made a totally random e-mail to make this account so I can switch without a trace from Deathy Weathy3. I only told a specific few who don't even know her so there's no way they could tell her about me. And yet, she STILL manages to find me. Like a creepy lesbian stalker. D: So she is a creepy b***h stalking everyone I know just to get them on her side and she's stalking me just to b***h about it all.
So basically, Katrina or "Starry the Monkey One" is a creepy b***h and EVERYBODY knows it.
Thank you for allowing me to vent once again. I am calm now and am willing to put asside my dark emotions for the horrid things Katrina has done to me; and dare claim that it was the other way around.
Good night.
I hebi I · Mon Jan 12, 2009 @ 09:02am · 0 Comments |