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Hrmm..(product of apathy/slight depressedness) |
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I've just been thinking, sort of. Most of my friends are older than me, and have plans for going to far-off colleges once they get out of school. I just feel like, perhaps once high school is over I won't be seeing my friends again. I'd love to keep in contact with them, but it seems that anyone who's moved away or gone to a different school I haven't seen ever since. And I guess the novelty of having a weird friend like me fades off after you move, or something. It just seems like I don't really have any lifelong friends that I've known since kindergarten or whatever. I didn't go to kindergarten, anyway. And even though I haven't known most of my friends for over three or four years (Excluding Miss Shorthand, whom I have known for five years, I think.) I really do trust them quite a bit. I mean, there are people who I've known for a long time but my reaction towards them is just kind of, " o hay its that dude."
I've always been a sort of friend oriented person. I mean, I don't have many fights or problems with my friends (I think I've gotten more upset with my family than I ever have with my friends) and they're probably more there for me than my family is. Don't get me wrong, my family is always happy to help me, but I don't feel comfortable bringing my problems to them. Friends, I think, can be better towards you than family a lot of the time. I mean, your friends don't HAVE to like you or live with you or talk to your, while your family sort of has to put up with you. I think my friends know me better than my family. No one in my family knows that I'm nearly as apathetic, cynical, and weird as I am. I mean, they might have seen hints of it, but they don't know. My friends do.
I'm not really sure what point there was to this, but I guess I just needed to type out my thoughts, as I so often to. I'm just wondering how this is going to end, I guess. I'm not even really sure what I mean by "this", but I guess I mean the series that is my life. What's gonna be the grand finale? Will I keep any of my friends? Will I actually want to have a relationship with someone? I don't know.
So. Yeah. I'll end with this: Friend, online or in real life, I hope you are safe and I hope you live well. I hope that you succeed in life and I hope you get to follow your dreams. I hope your life ends with unforgettable bang and that you were happy overall with your life. I hope you will be able to see through any prejudices that you might have and meet people who are truly wonderful. I hope you live as an unique, open-minded, happy individual, and I sincerely and truly wish you the best in life.
 dalia salvd · Thu Jan 08, 2009 @ 12:10am · 0 Comments |
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