in my last entry i said i tell about my evil scenes that were said least to me.
okay to what i remeber my love and i had a fight about what i don't know he, went out of the house we were about 26 maybe 28 i'm not sure and we lived together (of course) well he went out of the house and was going to go for a drive i ran out and tryed to stop him. My love and i started yelling i just wanted to work things out right now then later (x.x a thing i have) but he said no and wanted to get into the car and just cool off. For some reason something flashed in my mind about a car accedent and him in it dead or severaily injured, that is if he left but then i got a nother flash that if i made him stay he would leave me.... why i dunno it was what i picture i couldn't control the scece i tryed but it was the same thing just maybe different views. so i confinced him to stay and of course i told him what i saw he sort of thought i was making up at the time but i told him i rather him leave me then be dead or near death T__T i was crying by then just picturing it all.... then i thought of something else... i'm afriad of death i don't really want to die least not untill i'm ready... though i thought of my love in the hospital dieing and needed some sort of operation but needed a new part lack of better words x.x.... so i said if there was a risk or the fact i would die i give him what he needed and i wasn't afriad of the death and it was at any age mostly this age which i'm 15.
basicly that also had me in tears thinking of my love dyeing in the hospital T___T
so there ya have it i told ya -sighs-
 Rikku42 · Tue Oct 18, 2005 @ 11:44am · 0 Comments |
