I'm sorry to all the friends that I have pushed away this past week or so. I did it because I can't stand the thought of hurting anyone but myself. I'm a selfish idiot and I just don't know about anything anymore... I just got home from the lake. I woke up at 4 this morning and decided to walk there to maybe try and clear my head. I think my fingers are frost bitten but I don't care really. Just everything STILL makes me think of Rais. I mean, yeah, maybe he is better off without me.. I know he is... but... I'm nothing without him.... nothing.... what have I done to be anything different? nothing... I'm worthless. All I do is cause people to hurt and suffer. So, to all those friends I have pushed away... I'm sorry. Please forgive me.
 melancholy_vomit · Sun Nov 23, 2008 @ 03:51pm · 3 Comments |
